I used to belong
where I did not fit in
everyone knew my name
thought they knew me
every time I came around
they saw a new me
kept reinventing myself
changing my like
going for a new look
because the mirror told me
something wasn't right
something seemed
a little off my eyes were
weeping swollen from not sleeping
smiling don't mean happy
masking is a lie that hides
the truth standing before me
all I see is you staring at me
while I check the view
wanting to breakthrough
even if it cost me seven years
of everything going wrong
I'm strong enough to
pick back up where I stared
before the broken hearted
regrets daily smoking 2 packs
of cigarettes ashes on the floor
beside a broken glass of wine
keep pouring more and more
until I can no longer see the door
I shut behind broken reflections
I no longer want to see or be