breathtaking hallucinogens
ashes to generation exodus
a child trapped in my body
want to come out and party
mischievous behavior
hard to behave
suicidal inner tendencies
fiendish grin killer smile
undressing possessing suppressing confession
about a Smith and Wesson what happened on Normandy @ Western demonic chronic I'm on it
split into many juveniles
convicts convicted felons
many doors inside me
broken mirrors on every wall
playing ball in the house
jumping from couch to couch
mind gone on vacation
to Disneyland spinning around on a teacup
somewhere in wonderland pen in my hand doodling
scribbling piddling bored to death
doing nothing cursed on nothing left on
the first day seen a lot of
birthdays 8/19 is my Earth day no cake & ice cream
presents or nice dreams I scream in pain
back in the day calling my mamas name hit by many
strays living to count the shots
still ain't seen my worse day in Watts were blood flow
tears don't show and fear is lonely in need of company
not good companionship for a Blood or a Crip
never claimed a gang pay attention soles slip resistant
live by a code don't blow the whistle
forget the gun wear a pistol on full clip
when in doubt let it rip into a soul all this kill lodged in me trying to get it out through poetry
writing to enlighten and lighten a load too heavy for one to hold
drop one of my foes
body somebody payback and slay cannibalistically
mutilating and feasting on my enemies taking back
what the devil stole from me in attempt to silence me
still I plan to speak can't flow on empty got to eat
to tell my side of the story so
the truth will be told
like the game is to be sold
never show my hand
until I fold like paper words turn into vapor
my pen banish to dust and these beast in me rest in peace