I keep my head up because that's what the ones that not here no more would want. Stay strong because that's what my family and them taught. I been thinking about my future lately. I don't know what life has in store for me but it gotta be better then this. Thought i was doin the best i can. Swear depression don't wanna see me win. Crying every hour. so many confusions in life got me questioning things like is there really a higher power ? So many homeless people is the church really for the community? Why is it so many organizations wen they really ain't benefiting our nation? So many rejected peers y'all wonder why we take shots to calm our fears.
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Sick of having my present looking like my past, the girl of my dream just abandoned me, depression took over my mouth when my heart should of spoke just wish u would pick up the phone my heart feel empty now that your gone.
 Family categorizing me from my late mother choices or comparing me to my late grandmother incompetent boys. Bet if I died they ah be the loudest to mourn me. I don't even get the point life if your living to be extinct. I don't really feel your not by my side so im Back and forth with suicide you would to if you know what having a good heart and depression ah put you thru.
I can't be heartless even if I tried to use my heart less. Only time I don't give a second finger is when my illness won't let my mental rest. It might be because I have huge breast but i don't feel my heart beating I really hope this therapist can give me a reason to keep breathing. I really hope I can beat these demons
Skyee95
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The Immortal Wize says: Whenever you find yourself feeling this way always remember pick up your pen and write about it but whatever you do do not go writing suicide notes you are here for a reason and it is your responsibility to find out what it is. There is a Poet inside of you, Let Her Out. |
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Blessme520 says: I'm in awe as I read your thoughts. Been there! My faith is what keeps me afloat. When I'm most depressed I hear my mother saying "God will make a way out of no way". Suicide is NEVER an option. Writing is good but help/there are available resources. Sometimes you have to try several therapist (s) before finding the one that's most helpful to/for you. The God in you can and will slay your demons... |
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LP45 says: Skyee95, Your works are great and I am in agreement with Wizedom and Blessme520. God is and always will be your answer. Never give up hope on anything that makes you who and what you are. Keep up the great work. You're an excellent writer. Do your best to focus on the positive and use the negative as a stepping stone. Because when it all is said and done, there's only one opinion of you that truly matters, and that's God's. Peace and blessings to you in everything you do. |
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October feelingsGoal driven. cash stackin. only subtracting when its necessary. can't beat em still won't join them. I am not a dependent nor a victim. I rather walk then ride in a vehicle with wishy washy human beings. surviving now but One day be comfortable. Right now they lookin down on me. Narrating my life Saying dumb mature Forget you s. It's tragedy that it has to be this way tho. The hurt got me in grind mode. Seeing unc breathless made me activated it. Momma still worrying about money got me more concentrated. God gave me confirmation better days near when he sprinkle brief rain while the sun was still out. Keeping my head up Doing my own thing. Because at the end of the day. Only person who gone hold my own. Is me.  |
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Real s OnlyOnly God and me can save me. I won't let this world break me. I'm too crazy I mean I can't be lazy. See when my stomach sounds like thunderit's me who grinds to stop the hunger. It's me who say you got it Skyee when depression try to ruin my day. See i live America where the only solution to Freedom is death. When my thoughts are having a riot .I just look up the sky. It's something about the color blue with the brightest star in my eyes. Just Gives me hope, and help keeps my ambitious on tunnel vision. I'm coming from the bottom so my closet decisions maybe a little wrinkled but my voice matter to. The dirtier the hands the better the glory. Im 23 and hungry. I'ma be assertive with my goals and ignore you s. I bet if my grandma rose was still alive she ah say stay away from them chickens because she was kinda religious. I just wanna lay low, write, poetry, and mind my business. I don't want no smoke but if you light the blunt ima puff . Last name Maley I'm buff by natu... |
Real s OnlyOnly God and me can save me. I won't let this world break me. I'm too crazy I mean I can't be lazy. See when my stomach sounds like thunder it's me who grinds to stop hunger. It's me who say you got it Skyee when depression try to take over my cranium. See i live America where the only solution to Freedom is death. When my thoughts are having a riot in my head. I just look up at the sky. It's something about the color blue with the brightest star in your view that gives you hope. The better days novcane the hurt. I'm coming from the bottom so my closet choices maybe a little wrinkled but my voice still matters. The dirtier the hands the better the glory. 23 a youngin hungry. I'ma be assertive with my goals and ignore you s. I bet if my grandma was still alive she ah say stay away from them chickens because she was kinda religious. I just wanna lay low, write, poetry, and mind my business. I don't want no smoke but if you lit the blunt ima puff. Last name Maley buff by nature... |
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Talkin cause I'm twisted. Thanks for readingI'm only 23 what else do you want from me.? Im doing what I'm suppose to do. Which is grow up. My heart is pure my passion is real. So God granting me the courage to make away outta no way. Always remember Every body path is different. Everybody has there time be patient. Keep faith. They did you wrong cause they don't know no better and mad they not filled with greatness. Stay focus. Ignore the bull. F**K dem They ain't got no purpose. Life to short and karma too real. If your skin color is brown like mines or darker. They killing us for no reason and our justice system really don't care either. So Scream loud and die hard for your purpose. Be black and proud flat out. "Like we ain’t never ever go hard They don’t let us in, we bogarting" -Young M.A #Skyee #Poet #blacklivesmatter #thepurpose #mindovermatter #Jordanyear #2018 #year23 #1995 #youngma #Praktice Just me and my thoughts. Ima writer right? Nah ima dope poet ! ... |