I LOVE YOU BUT I LOVE ME TOO

I won't give up on you

I watched you die a long time ago

there was no funeral or burial, just

Burnett vodka bottles and the smell of cigarettes

I tried to save you but my all of my efforts were rejected

Everyone said that I was wasting my time, they said you were too far gone

I nearly killed myself trying to resuscitate you

I almost gave up but just when I was about to accept defeat..

you looked at me, your eyes were weak and your breathing was shallow 

but i could tell that you were happy that I was still around

So I’ll stay as long as you need me

Balance

Who says good things last forever? I've seen snow melt, flowers died,Friends leave, and old folks forget great times

But who says bad things last forever? I've also seen snowfall,flowers bloom, friendships start, and babies smile for the first time

Masks

Everyone walk around with masks on..

It creates the illusion that we are all the same

We hide our feelings, wants, and needs

& settle for security instead of true happiness

We’re scared to be vulnerable instead we build guards

that block true love, opportunity, and creativity

Masks will only hide you from the world but

you’ll always know who you are…

I think it’s interesting that

We’re willing to torture ourselves to please others

But think it’s selfish to please ourselves..

We allow people to tell us what best for us

and we believe them because we can’t see their flaws

But if you remove their mask you’ll see scars

Nobody is perfect

Nobody has all the answers…

We’re scared to expose ourselves because we fear

being labeled as crazy or weird but

I challenge you to take ...

You hating? (2014)

I brought along a confidence but not the sh*t you gas on from a compliment I can step to my enemy by my goddamn self with a stride that's meaner than a n*gga born in wealth that's the lesson I taught myself so you can't belittle me as long as I got my health My biggest scars on the inside they're not visible but they made me who I am today that's why I feel invincible that's why I used to boss these b**tches round’ like the principal And I don't like to argue but it's all about the principle Next time speak up cause I'm not hearing you but I think it's time to cut the you know nobody fearing you You're on autopilot, you got other n*ggas steering you The wrong way down the runway, I bring more truth then that n*gga Trae If things are getting done then it's getting done my way So you can send your best b*tch and I'll kill her on her best day

Serendipity (DV SN)

I found joy again

 But I wasn't looking for it

Thanks for finding me

Rambling

Can I Vent?

Am I hexed?

Why do I love people that don’t love me?

I’m always thinking of others but I’m forgettable

I guess I’m trying to give the world something it never gave me

but that’s stupid right?

I should be bitter  

I should be hateful

I should be mad 24/7

but I’m not,

I choose to be an optimist

You’d say it raining while I’d say the earth is reviving itself

Don’t get me wrong, I’m a realist too

I see things for what they are...

that’s why when a house of cards fall, I’m more disappointed than broken

because of that they say I have no emotion

They say I’m cold but

That’s a lie

I feel everything

that’s why I’m always hurting

You see, My dad is gone

& honestly I&r...

What Happened?

What Happened?

Fathers are leaving and Mothers are not showing up

Guns teaching N**gas, so these black kids aren’t growing up

Home life is hell, and in school they don’t know enough

Street Knowledge is well, “yo, Tell that dopehead that this ain’t enough”

This is becoming a never ending cycle

Forget about the money, let’s teach these kids survival

Teach them about hard work and determination

Let them know their time is now

Even the tallest trees start with germination

Use knowledge as their building blocks, I am a word mason

Before you throw them a ball, pass them an education

Tell congress that poor schools are in poor places

They’ll teach you how to jump but you’ll never reach your placement

Pity the fool, not me

I remember the lights being off for weeks

I remember sitting in the living room surviving off of kerosene heat

I remember getting dressed in the dark

I remember using cellphone light just to tell socks apart

It seemed like us & good times were a world apart

the struggle made me who I am, I know it gave me heart

I remember problems at home, I was the problem at school

I remember telling myself just get what you can use

Became book & street smart so you can't distort my views

Didn't need the gun because my brain is my tool

I use it well, so I pity the fool, that tries to knock me down

Drowning In Trees (2015)

Country living can some times be as sweet as northern tea

I want to walk in a place where the "strangers" don't know me 

At times easy to point out but sometimes hard to see

They say that I'm smart, that I can change the world or set it free

Oceans of opportunity but for the moment I'm drowning in trees.

I QUIT