greed came and pillaged
my village
when the smoke cleared
I stood fist clutched
gashed teeth
swearing if
anything moved
I swore I'd kill it
betrayed by the one
who was paid dearly
to portray me
it took the strength
of the wind to hold
me back from
striking back
always asking myself
why did I do that
why did I let you go
for taking my life
was I shown any mercy
did anyone care
about my feelings
knowing I'm not
wrapped too tight
will I ever come
unraveled
unlatching
releasing
this inner me
that I constantly
have to restrain
what if I no longer can
what if I'm no longer
that strong again
everyone has a breaking point
pressing down so hard
in this mead
skin on my fingers
about to crack and bleed
seeing myself
standing at your door
about to kick it in
again and again and again