86,400 SECONDS
I haven't left my house in 4 whole days
I nourished my corpse with air & tears
They've spilled onto the floor
My remains have been dead for 7 hours
How normal we were before all of this
Before I could see all of the misery in your eyes
I've spent the last 420 minutes contemplating how so much can change in 24 hours
There are 86,400 seconds in a day
And I am trying to pause to the second that you fell out of love with me
Where did you go?
I am still here, standing in the void with my heart slowly dying in my hands
These walls speak your name as if they know you better than I do
They scream of loneliness
And Pain
How do you survive with one half of your body absent?
I've tasted the barrel of a gun in your words
They are bitter
The word "friends" is insulting to me
They are like bleach sprayed into my eyes & I am blinded for seconds or hours I'm no longer sure
I have lost track of time
There is no peace at home
Our sheets still boast of your scent
They taunt me
At night I forget that you have gone
The smell won't leave
Maybe I should burn the bed?
There are 86,400 seconds in a day
And for the life of me, I cannot identify the exact moment that your touch changed
How long have you been hiding these daggers?
This betrayal runs so thick between us
I've shared so many secrets with you, so many insecurities
I've loved you, hard and unconditionally
You have always been so evasive and impulsive
Maybe I should've caught on
Those eyes of yours saw through my soul, and were so transparent
I don't see you anymore
There are 86,400 seconds in a day and I've spent the last 4 days
drowning in my tears the second that you left
Love only seems to work in one direction in our case
How else can you explain one person dying when the other leaves
with a new life undamaged, unharmed, unbroken and optimistic