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I feel resisted no matter how much I have persisted.
There’s been no consistence coming from that corner.
Swinging my arms while flailing towards a body of armor.
What am I doing wrong, tell me what’s my sin?
Is it to be too dependent on God and to totally rely on Him?
I need to know what’s the flaw that He’s supposedly trying to refine.
It’s been blowing my mind, as I sit & think of new words to put together to rhyme.
As some of the pain exits my system, using the written word.
All I feel is the aggravation rise up to the surface and burn.
Burning my flesh, my heart, soul and all my thoughts have now perished.
Am I the man of SIN? The son of perdition, full of maliciousness & sedition?
If so, then why after 14 months God hasn’t healed my spiritual condition?
Everyday, it’s been a consistent & persistent rendition.
Repeating the pain on this earthly plane has consumed my brain.
As if it’s legally enforced
I have not a single thought of peace no matter how hard I try to deal with the situation that’s been given.
Cause at the end of the day, optimism doesn’t change how we’re currently living.
Actually and quite factually, we are slowly dieing.
I awaken everyday knowing that I will have some more crying.
Another day to release pain in H-2-0 form from my soul.
And just so you know, I don’t know where to turn or where to go.
Cause I once fully believed and felt relieved
That I learned that if I want a better life, and a life rid of constant strife
That I should fully rely on God our so-called father Jehovah.
But since I made that decision, our pain has escalated and our lives are nearly over.
He has not lived up to His part of the deal or fulfilled His promises.
He said He would prove Himself if you need the proof that He’s real.
Real in the sense of being a part of your everyday situation.
But there’s been constant fluctuation and an elevation of painful agitation.
SkTzO
