my soul is in torment from self inflicted pain,
the sorrow within my mind beckons misery from my wounded heart.
silent tears i cry asking misinterpreted questions
only to recieve answers that has no relevance.
where am i to turn to?
who am i to ask?
to heaven i gaze upon,
sensing the sadness of my mother and father
as their youngest son struggles to find unresolved answers.
i close my heart to all and begin to pray.
dear Heavenly Father
i come to you in a time of need.
my life is wasted on stress,
thinking of love and wishing upon falling stars that one day i shall find the One,
living in the shoes of another hoping that one day i can be like them;
and admiring woman from afar praying that they will notice me,
i am ashamed and unhappy!
there is no reason for me to put myself through so much pain!
your love is the only love i should care about,
and yet i feel empty!
like a desert searching for water
my soul thirsts for love that i already have!
give me the strength to carry on with no regrets,
the confidence to exile my weaker self
and allow the real me to reign over this flesh!
a man i wish to become but as i am
your child will be forever lost!
i wish...no i want to be found!
show me the guiding light to your soothing warmth,
so that i may live a life free from self inflicted stress!
i want to be happy!
i yearn to have the confidence i know i have!
i want to be strong not just for myself,
but for those i love as well!
I ask this in your name!
Amen.
a prayer from a torment heart,
i feel at ease.
a cry from a sorrowful soul
is now on the verge of becoming happy;
and for the first time in my life,
a facial expression that i deemed lost,
i can finally smile.