Teach me to love

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Teach me to love you….. cause this is new to me. Having someone that thinks about me and wants to hold me endlessly is honestly scary. Teach me to accept. To let your warm kisses be a good thing and your presence to be home. that the feelings are mutual and i dont have to face the world alone Teach me to believe in monogamy again. That one plus one equals real and no one else can be added. like us against the world and no one can keep us divided. I want to know how it truly feels to be the only one. I’ve tried having that thought in the past but the amount of times i’ve been wrong just made me so done. I’m tired of playing dumb. I want you to be the one to break down my walls. the ones that have hurt me had made them so tall. they built the walls with bricks of disappointments and tears and bull for cement. they covered my heart with hopes but left my nose open to fein for their scent. With no front door to just let you in . you have to go thru hell and high water to even know where to begin. and thats why im scared. I dont think im worth it but i pray you want it….. as much as i do. Cause i don't know how to be vulnerable and open to loving you. Everything scares me because its all new So teach me to love you….. although it terrifies me to let somebody in to a place i sit alone privately. where i write my fears on the ceilings and insecurites on the walls. where i let myself be weak and actually let my tears fall. you might walk in and be suprised its so small. but i’ll make space for you. so teach me to be open. so that when you touch me i don't flinch and when you kiss me , i don't clinch and when you look at me, i dont hide and when you love me, i abide I apologize in advance for the work you have to go thru for me i would never think its worth it. but you’ve shown me that you’re willing to I hope you dont get tired or bored along the way I hope im the main prize for once and you’ll stay. but yets hopes are what have destroyed me before. so now resistance and sarcasm has been gaurding the main door. Crazy how selfish this poem might sound. Everything about me and wanting you around. but you’ll be suprised how many times i’ve put others first. i guess that explains why im the broken one and continue getting hurt. so teach me to love you. so i can keep you. teach me to know that its okay to be vulnarable with you and trust that you’ll be understanding too. be my teacher and i’ll gladly be the student cause im ready to be happy and with you is how i want it to end.