Twisted in the brain . Screws loose . I'm declared insane . Im in hell on sunny days . My soul only at peace when it rains . I feel like Abel's brother Kane . forever punished with pain . i'll betray judas and place him with a kiss , Then i'll take his money he got paid to betray me with . I might be crazy . but I'm hurting down to the core . On My birth date . The docter announced the baby a boy . They named me Shane . Until then they seen the umbilical cord . It was a misstake . so the name changed and Clarissa came . Years later people still making that misstake . but that was my choice I chose to look this way .