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Listen!
He has no name and no face.
Present in my memory he no longer hunts my mind.
Released to the dusk I learned to forgive but never forget.
After 23 years I have learned that the battle and the war is now over.
That monster no longer exists.
But wait….
What about others
What about the little ones who could be suffering with invisible tears.
Hiding behind anger and even a smile showing no fears.
As I look at his face through the cyber picture, I see the same flames in his eyes.
That little girl was once afraid as the heat was pressed to her mind.
What if he pulled the trigger?
To young to understand but she learned this familiar monster and his nasty ways by the end of the summer.
Like Chuck and Like Freddy he was just as deadly.
Her tears were unseen even when she was seen.
The pain intense as she realized,
Like everybody she had to figure out how she would continue her life knowing,
She is bad
She is ugly
She will never understand anything about life.
But she understood that thang between his legs more than she understood her pain.
However, 23 years later, this girl standing, would not dare lift a figure to blame.
But wait…
But wait, now that I see him I have no fears and no hate.
He has no name and no face.
I’m not justifying his actions, sorry for him or ignoring his actions.
What ever you decide to do may be all worth packing,
A body bag, court, police, retaliation.
The balls in your court baby girl.
My message is, no matter what you do be happy. I’m happy that my fears is no longer.
The invisible tears are gone.
No more suffering, insecurities, and believing that I am a bad, bad girl
Meaning less sex, anger towards men and toxic relationships.
Dancing, drugs, fighting and even tormenting family because I was not heard.
But wait…
It was not them who need to hear me it was my inner peace
Whispering, “But wait…Listen”
You are beautiful!
You are strong!
You are intelligent!
You are confident!
You are in control!
And,
You can do this!
For 23 years I was waiting to hear this from my mother, absent father, and fake friends.
But, it was in me all alone.
“Peace be still”
I finally understand.
