I feel like Langston hughes, life for me aint been no crystal stair
I’ve jumped hurdles of life destruction
Climbed mountains of jealousy and I’ve been tripped by tribulations most glorious trials
My courage appeared, in the mist of dawns
Made me persevere,
I conquered, feared,
And I , I tried it all over again.
My life process elevates
No one there but me to narrate
Staring through the mirror of truth to decide if this life is something I want to do
No inspirations or quotes of life’s stabilizations, I feel incarnated.
As if Satan has planted a seed in me and now im impregnated by all his devastations
Cameras everywhere waiting for my next scene
But the come up will be my revalation
Thing is, do I have the courage to move forward or just sit here in pause
Knock knock knock goes the problems at my door
I adjust my clothing and boldly answer
Just to hear negativity coming from everyone I thought believed in me
Even my pastor
What a waste just to have to face this injustice
I feel like I’ve be raped of my success
Moving up the laddler just to fall back down
Let me join the pain circus
But I stand tall
Ready for that call to a new wave to surf on
And I call my self a woman
I call my self a woman
I call my self a black woman
Running for my crown and I retrieve it
My courage appeared in the mist of dawns
Made me persevere,
I conquered, feared,
tried it all over again
If I could just gain one more heaven award for keep on pushing forward
When I rise from my current state of mind and the phase that I’ve ended in
I’m one step away from unchaining this lazy funk that keep me from
Shining in my season of growth my season of conquering one more path to my freedom.