I tried not to love you.
I tried to take every ounce of love and
every other emotion I had towards you...
and purge it from the depths of my soul.
I tried to take every laugh, every memory, every smile from your sweet lips that was etched in my memory
and pack it all into a box
I planned to seal and never open again.
I tried...
But no matter how hard I tried to fight it,
Emotions leaked from the place I had buried them.
Memoried crawled from those depths...
At first it was a light leak
but now they are rushing forward
full throttle.
The walls that I built have been
knocked down in a huge swell,
a bombarde of emotions.
I still love you.
I tried to push you away.
I tried to hate you.
I tried to not want you but I can't.
When I picture a "we",
It's always you and me.
When I pictured family,
It's always you, me, and the 3 blessings
bestowed upon us from our Father himself.
I tried to let you go,
instead I find myself holding on.
Tightening my grasp and pulling you
into my loving embrace.
I've been waiting.
I thought I was trying to end them but in reality they were delayed.
They were waiting for your heart to
sync up, link up, and upgrade them.
I was so deep in a lie I had
spoon fed to myself.
"I don't love him."
"I don't need him."
"I don't want him."
......But I do.
I love you.
I want you.
I need you.
I need you.
I love you.
I want YOU.
The answer is you.
BloomingQueen93
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