I used him.
Too scared and impatient to sit still like God placed it on my heart.
Now I've inadvertently misused him.
Dang. I never saw myself becoming this person.
God told me to sit still and like a little child I sat for a little bit...
Then I got distracted at him when he popped up and peeked in the window
Of my life.
Eventually the curiosity caught the best of me....
And I found myself sneaking out the door to get a better peek.
He was amazing.
Never have I met a man so sweet,
He had to be a blessing.
He had to be the answer....
To my prayers.
If only you knew.
If only you really understood...
Then maybe you would understand.
Many a nights I prayed.
Many a nights I cried...
Then I would pray again.
"Father God,
Please bless me with a man, a head of my household.
Somebody to love me and complete my family.
Somebody I can love with no regrets."
That was my most repeated request.
I tried to sit still, be patient.
I tried to focus on the knowledge God was feeding me so I would be hip when it came time to take the test....
But I got distracted.
I got sidetracked.
I was so focused on him that I never sat back down to resume my lessons..
I never stepped foot back into class.
I took him as the reason God told me to be still.
I had studied so hard, stayed so focused...
Surely this had to be my reward for such resilience?
A good man.
For a while I was happy.
I didn't bother to turn to God to show me the purpose and His intentions...
I played it by sight and by ear of what I thought was right....
I was selfish.
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Xclusive says: I think we all fall victim to these circumstances. On one hand we need to be patient and wait for God's confirmation, on the other we fight against the flesh assuming the first sign is the sign from above. The key is when you know, you just know!. Great write. Keep the ink flowing! |
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