The sun is down, the star brighting up the sky.
All the people that hurt me are asleep now, no one is here to judge me nor to see my weakness, its just me and my thoughts listening to the quietness in my room trying to close my eyes trying to hold my tears keeping everything in so I can heal the scars that destroying my life.
So I Finally open my eyes while Im laying in my back looking at the wall keep on thinking what I did to deserve such a life.
And boom those tears, the one that burn like hell is droping down one by one.
That feeling that make you feel useless, unimportant, and insecure are coming one after one. The noise in my head starting to take over the peaceful night.
And all I want to do is scream my pain away but I have lost my voice so now I am lock in that cage of pain, trying my best to free myself but my memories lock me in and throw away the key deep down in the ocean of my tears. So I become the broken missing puzzle that everyone are abusing, accusing, using and ignoring.
QueenJ
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I CRY AT NIGHT
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Xclusive says: Great write. Keep the ink flowing! |
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Miss_chaniel says: Felt this great write Hun |
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QueenJ says: Thank you guys😠|
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jwins says: And sis! I'm here to tell you, that through it all.... it's those tears that are the beginning of your blessings. Imagine going through an unseen hell within, nd can't muster up a tear... Write on sis! Peace and love |
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