got me a habit I have to break
got to have it I need to pray
if I did what would I say
broken inside cut every day
why do you hide your face
please don't turn away
I need you in this place
am I still under grace
turn this wine back to water
put me to sleep
wake me when it's over
so I can rise up feeling sober
I fear your wrath but still that
don't keep me from being honest
about these feelings I'm feeling
used to be good but this world
is turning me into a villain
I'm not crazy but I still
feel like killing those who
hurt my feelings but that's
insane their already dead
worms is their remains
still it's so hard to stop the pain
can't stop this brain
from wondering in unchartered
territories 2 story buildings
made of brick and mortar
hungry and full off water
swollen from beatings
forgiving ain't forgetting
scars are reminding
a good feeling is unwinding
this habit is too binding
I'm not having fun
I'm not the only one