deciding to take a look
within
scary bones fighting
trying to escape
the ethereal lighting
not ready to accept
the walls of wailed writing
and dim
sounds of angels flying
just outside my window
to places
that pissed my bones to go
So what
i forgot how to see
i’m trying desperately
i know
that
the black bird
that smacked into my head
the other day
sure could
So what
blocks of concrete fever
now just sinking into a lotion
of grey dust
click clack click clap
don’t mask those eyes
sun won't shine today
taste that breath
until it's ready to fly anyway
there's my tribe
bowed heads praying yes praying
into cells
containing minds
distracting from
reality or maybe fantasy
or
may be
we’ll never
know
one
ever came back
to say so
So what
that I make my bed everyday
So what
no one ever comes
to feel the sheets
of my stretching
So what
that no one knows
at the metro
there was a dusty young girl
trying to pull her pant legs up
over her waist-ed mind
red wild hair
that would scare
red hair wild
glances met
she knew my name
she floated it as we passed
not sure if I wanted
to be a part of this mess
i heard
her see
when I was there
you remember
of course you do
And what
her accomplice
in time
much more in touch
with managing his dope game
and stair case rhyme
on his way down
his way
down
smacked his head
with that fat hand
was that a class of 88’ gold ruby
high school band
i heard the clarity
attempted muffle
we’ve got duties to do
some people out there
self worth less
of our struggle
needing to feel better
about their fortune-not
hurry our begging time
will soon rot
she stared at me
sort of growled
i don’t
remember
choosing this
do
you
how long is this mess
supposed to last
playing the role
so they pity and pass
feeling lucky that
they are not me
do they think
they won the lottery
do you
remember
standing in that
angelic line
wait a minute
So what
i know the place was divine
So what
but I’m surely pissed
So what
was I drunk to accept this
So what
you were first
to say yes