I Haven't Been On My Game In Months..
Poetry Never Came To My Mind Once...
So I Took A Look...
Then A Second One Is What I Took...
I Looked At The Awards And Recognition I Got...
And Realized Failure Is What I'm Not...
So No Disrespect This Is For Me No One Else...
I'm No Longer Nailed To The Shelf...
I Won't Come At Anyone I Won't Drop Names...
Just Realize There Is No More Games...
Skillz Is What I Got That's Why It's My Name...
I'm Not Saying My Game Was Always The Same..
Cause I Even Know It Wasn't..
That Counts As Me Admitting My Problem Does It...
I'm Not An Addict Or An Alcoholic...
Or Whatever It Is You Call It...
Just Know This I'm Admitting My Faults And Problem...
I Hit Beneath The Bottom...
It Was Hard To Admit The Fact That I Wasn't Grade A Good...
And No I Didn't Do Everything I Could...
And No I Didn't Do Everything I Should...
But If You Hit Where I Hit I Don't Think You Would...
Then I Realized That Poetry Is My Therapy..
I Don't Need Anything Else Next To Me...
Except A Pad And A Pen...
To Get Back To Then...
When I Was Able To Write Nine Poems Maybe Ten...
Continuous Non Stop No Breaks In Between...
Then My Mind's Light Was No Longer Green..
It Turned Red And Never Changed Back..
I Didn't Know What To Do Cause It Never Did That...
So I Sat Around And Waited For It To Change Back...
Then I Realized I Had To Fix My Problem Myself...
Cause It Wasn't Going To Fix Itself...
So Here I Am Trying To Fix It...
Cause I Miss It...
So Just Bare With Me Cause This Could Take A Few Days...
Got To Fix Many Things In Many Ways...
But I'm Here For Good I'm No Longer Stuck In That Maze...
I'm No Longer Looking Through The Haze...
I See Clear Ahead...
This Is Skillz Resurrecting From The Dead..