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High Off Him

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High off Him
One taste of his tongue
I was undone
Sprung
Numb
Like uncut cocaine
Pushed my sleeves up
To let him in
Like Straight shoot
Heroin to vein
My last nerve
Reserved
I craved him
Deep within
Buggin wide eye
Like crack fiend
Looking
Longing
For my next cum up
Tried others
But he my drug of choice
My jones
For him alone
Habitual Rehab detox
Can't stay clean nor sober
Drunk off his intoxicating believable bull
Got me Hungover
He stole
Time
He took
My love
He lied
Got caught
We fought
Nobody won
When it was all said and done
I should of known to run
He slang "I'm sorry Baby"
Like grams off a kilo brick
I must be Jesus
Forgiving Judas
I was a hype
Chasing his high
Like tightly packed
Meth pipe
Shaking from withdrawals
I scanned streets
Called so called connects
Got gaffled
Took slow drags of him often
Held him like the kind bud
Smoke in my chest
Chasing that first high he gave me
Chasing that first eyes rolled back
Chasing that first warm all over
Chasing that first mind blown wow
Chasing something that I loved, but never loved me back
He was like my dealer and my drug
I was addicted to his smack
Leaving heartache
Like hyperdemic needle tracks
Swear i felt like I had been popping Mollies with shots of Hennessy
Back to back
He my LSD
I hallucinate we in love
We in something
He my painkiller
But see he be killing me softly
Its why Im in pain
And he the only remedy
This relationship is loaded
Too many cold turkey kicking
Leading to too many soon relaspes
Nostrils flared
Me with my sleeves pulled up
Slapping my viens
To find a good one
Please let me find a good one
The faithful one was never faithful
I refuse to be Dopesick again
I will need a fix soon
Maybe change my drug of choice
He my HA
Him Anonymous
But I'm no quitter
Addicted to Him
He my Thirteenth Step
God grant me the serenity
There is no wisdom here
When it comes to him
Just
Say
No...
Doesn't work

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OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY JstMadeItUp

Dreamer Deferred

Are you a Dreamer?

Do you Dream

What do you dream of?

Dream of Hope

Dream of FREEDOM

Dream of LOVE.

Darkness cannot drive out darkness

Only light can do that.

Hate cannot drive out hate

Only love can do that

A Quotable fact

The house

The house is on fire

Match been lit

When was the match lit?

Nat with his pulled up boot straps

Bible in one hand

The other Kerosene

Had a dream

Colored s

Way Black

Before Martin Luther King

Dred Scott

Got caught force fed

Repeat Slavery

White folx mad

History disrobed

Who really has Devil Tails

So...

We still at Civil War
Over Civil Rights

Today slaves

Trapped in

Meth

Crack...

What He Said

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Elegy

Elegy Stolen Soul Death comes Like serpent venom No anecdote To cope with hopeless Lives lost Cost High price paid Laid to rest Gun shot chest Not an option For open casket Who wanna lay eyes On the dead anyway? Shake my head Damn. Another Dead Black Man Who will never Black fist raised Stand Cry extroverted tears Inside weak I ain't strong enough for this Who would be? Seeing somebody's baby Last appearance Death laughing Wasn't invited He came anyway Stole from us Done it before I can't even stop it Willing determined assassins Hate life just like him... Fiction to believe Death won't come again Notorious thief Still at Large...

Charged

I Pray today

I am not tipped off my scales

Although against my soul

The gates of Hell will not prevail

There is a part of me

That should never be conjured up

For I am love in it's purest form

I am annoited and adorned

But beware of my thorns

A rose plucked

Will prick to remind you

I draw blood if intended to stunt my bloom

I spit venom

Like a viper

So tread lightly

I execute hits

Like a sniper

You won't be missed

Sentenced by God

So Ima lifer

I wont be getting out alive

There is not a adjective, verb or noun

That can be found

Describing my majesty

I am the fruit seed

From the tree

Created by the King of Everything

Queen destined to be

And so I a...

High Off Him

Lit

The switch was on

It was you

The light

I smiled

Illuminations in the soul

Behold the beautifulness

You kissed me

My mind flew to heaven

I asked God for you

Thanked Him

I wondered back into your arms

Love you

Accepted everything it is

Excused everything it wasn’t

Looked in your spirit

Knew I’d knew it

Believed in wishes

Truth was told

I am here

Here with you

Switch turned on

Me inside of you

You inside of me

The switch

Stayed in on position

HIM

HIM

I don’t know where to start

Or how to begin

This tends to always happen

When I’m talking about….

HIM

He was so fine

As time

Standing still at midnight

A mind’s ease

Like a cool breeze

Oh, how I had long to hold him tight

This is spontaneously episodic

But before me stood

The complete package deal

And for real

I bought it

He hadn’t even touched me yet

Already my panties was wet

See, I was in love

As if love had anything to do with this

Desires to such his big lips

Imagining him riding high on my widened hips

Oh, how I wished

To kiss his big

Black

Thickness….

Of course there’d be some time pass

...

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We march for civil rights and the movement
Wondering where the endangerment of black panthers
How did the predator become prey
Power to the player
Who don’t give a damn about being
Black or Proud
No suckers needed
In dope and crap games
It’s a shame
We hella shaded
Been looking through
Rainbow coalition glasses
Masses of a people putting their own chains
On their necks and feet
Memories of strange fruit trees
Are simply dust in the wind
While we pretend that we don’t hear ourselves
Calling each other s

Like pulling triggers are the only way to
Free our brothers and sisters
From the clutches of living in fear of death
Another breath we don't have to breath
Another seed dies from lack of need
Another brother you ain't gotta pray for
Another sister who you ain...

I Am (President Obama Homage)

I AM
First

But I will not be the Last
I AM
The Healing salve

From horrid horrific

historical forefathers past
I AM
The living combination
The Present demonstration of
African and Caucasian can love one another
I AM
Many colors
I AM
The voice
The choice of this Land of the Free
I AM
Bellowing from down below
Uprising through middle passages
Can be found in the company of High Classes
Yes!I AM ONE AND THE SAME!
I AM
Vision claimed, the awaken breath off the Dream of a King
I AM
Elected overseer that Freedom may continue to ring, throughout this land
I AM
What “We the People” stand for
I AM
Peace in this time of War
I AM
We the People strong
I AM
Holding on
To Outcries and Uproars and Demands for the belief that
YES, WE CA...

Remember This

Remember I love you…
Love every hue of you
In fact
From Caramel
Cocoa
Red Bone
Chocolate
Cinnamon
Blue Black
Even White Chocolate
Cuz’ if Chocolate be in there
There’s some beautiful for me to love in that
I see the Blackened We
Have traveled past His story
God’s Glory
Got us through
Middle passage flashbacks
Slashes
Scars healed on our backs
From Master Whips
Proclamations for Emancipations
From Juneteenth 1965
To 2008 Freedom Cries
Love your Civil Rights marches
Your raised Black Power fist
Loved you even when you pressed
Permed
Greased
Watered and gel down
Your Afro
Dayuuuuum!
You got some hair trips…
Past heroin
Cocaine
Peddling crack
And Smoking dank sticks…
Still I love you…
...

High Off Him

Dreamer Deferred

What He Said

Elegy

Charged

High Off Him

Lit

HIM

Still, Freedom Cries

I Am (President Obama Homage)

Remember This

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