Night terrors as I reflect my life in this mirror;
An addict still a child, a child of an addict;
This 23 year old woman hurting to stay strong;
In a world where I sometimes feel as though I don’t belong;
The beatings the scars, why does life have to be so hard;
Molested at ages, 4, 7 and nine;
Take this tape out and don’t ever press rewind;
If you were never born he said,… then me and your moms would get along;
Why cant you just leave me alone,.. stop hurting my emotions and treated me so wrong;
Emotions, emotions,… they ran so deep;
From the hole in my heart to the cracks in my feet;
That night with a prayer,… I cried my self to sleep;
Thinking this is my last prayer and then I’ll call it defeat;
She finally let him go though as yall should know;
But why should it had to take that much pain from a child to show;
Because she was an addict; an addict of abuse;
And the man that she loved,… was a victim of drug use!
Night terrors, as I reflect my life in this mirror;
This tell doesn’t get any clearer so use my life as your mirror;
So many nights of abuse, constant tricking and getting used;
Long days of pain,.. soon became the life of drug use;
Prescript meds,.. but its still a drug;
Popped two by the hour like I was making love;
Scream he said,… and I’ll kill you ;
Next thing you know,.. I was on that cold bench;
3men, one night, my birthday to be exact;
Thought it was my fault,… but it was there attack;
They left me in the park, on that just to bleed;
Like I was just some animal,.. boy was that mean;
They took me in and out for what felt like eternity;
and what’s even graver,.. is because I forgive them for hurting me;
how could people be so cruel; so rude, you aint know me or what I’d been through;
all you know,.. is you knew was that you and your crew found something fun to do;
my built self-esteem you took from me;
but im still living right,.. so I’ll let it be!
Diamond da poet
Diamonddapoet
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