I’m working hard
To get myself a financial advancement.
Simultaneously striving
To get intellectual enhancement.
Although I recognize and accept
That my mind is not eternal
I still feel the burn of complacency
Like an inferno.
Burning inside
Which continuously fuels me to strive.
Admittedly thankful
That I am still here alive!
But I also feel that to live is only fun
When you work hard to continue to strive
And existence feels futile
When you feel yourself not being able to thrive.
Been continuously contiguous
Has taught me to be conspicuous
At times feeling ridiculous
Cause it feels that Satan remains perfidious.
So tedious and viral
Swarming in upon us like a wave that’s tidal.
Slowly pulling at my bridle
Trying to force me to think thoughts that are suicidal
So I take spiritual midol
Erasing the pain
Eradicating the strain
From the root of the grain.
Bleeding my release like a monthly enemy
Although a human male
I understand the physiology
My metaphorical analogy
Is to prevent the lies from spreading
Within my own minds anatomy.
I expect nothing but the best of me
Nothing but the best from me
Nothing else but to be perfect
So no one could ever try to jerk this
Although perfect in the sense of my imperfections
Tired of ridiculing myself and causing rejections
No more need for spiritual or intellectual protections
Although it will never be reached
I will strive for human perfection
For I want to be a part of the elect
Not Gods reject
With high honor & respect
I have forced myself to learn the divine dialect
To better communicate what’s in my intellect
What lies within my mind!
Turbulent thoughts that make me seek to find
To find better methods & ways to come up from behind
I know I could never be
Insanely perfect to me
So perfectionism is just a word used
To self enthuse
Not allowing myself to confuse
Or get my light defused
I will forever be imperfect and that kills me
But doing everything in power to better myself is what thrills me.
So I practice to perfect - at least some skills you read & see?
So I can learn to deal with my imperfect humanity.
SkTzO