not what he wanted to find

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life

 I still see, that hard look his eyes
our memories, play like a movie in my mind
I’m starting to unwind
I need to find
a place where I can breathe
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sometimes, the people we love, become strangers to us
that’s what happens, when you trust
when you show them everything, who you are
then you trust you two, will make it far
you think he loves you, because he wrote you a song
I guess, he could only pretend,for so long
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I see now, he’s not the white night, come to sweep me off my feet
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he was just a boy
I was just, his little toy
well now, he’s done
he’s had, his fun
this may hurt for a months, or years
but I know one day, this rain will clear
because I’ve hurt before
even though this hurts quite a bit more
I know one things for sure
heartbreak doesn’t have a cure
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he won’t come to my door, with flowere in his hand
begging me, to take him back, begging me, to understand
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you slow dance in his living room
to paramore’s girly little tune
and he sings in your ear
we had such a beautiful year
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he tells you your beautiful, the way you are
and he doesn’t leave when he see’s your scars
he just tells you, that he’s here, and your not alone
I feel his abscence, deep in my bones
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then one night, he says he’s gone
and screaming to yourself, what did I do wrong
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because it’s the ones, that hold you when you cry
their the ones, who want to watch you die
the boys who, holds you while you sleep
and lets you fall in way too deep
he changes his mind
decides that your not what he wanted to find
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I was so ***ing niave
to think,he wouldn’t leave
I begged him, again and again
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I gave him everthing, I had to give
without him I’ve got no reason to live
he gave up
because, I wasn’t enough
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and I’ll miss every laugh, every kiss, every smile
because real love, only has a face, once in a while
his smile, rivaled the sun, on it’s brightest day
it’s so damn hard, to watch it fade away
I still had 1,000 I love you’s, I wanted to say
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he’s right, love’s not a fairytale
because in those, the prince doesn’t bale
when the water get’s rough
he doesn’t tell you to be tough
the prince never says it’s for the best
to take, cut, burn, and break your heart
and turn away, at the chance, of a new start
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50 foot waves, are rolling in
now I’ll have to learn to swim
and never let another person in
because love’s a joke, a game
and I, will never be the same
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I’ll put our things in a box, and hide it away
untill the day
I can take them out, and not cry
until the day, I can say goodbye
untill I don’t feel dead inside
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he was the last person I ever thought
would break my heart
he was the only thing,keeping me
from falling apart