The Essence Of You

Should've known better

How could you try to break me down

When I've loved and honored you

In return you treat me like a clown

Like love never existed inside your heart

Like you had been telling me lies from the very start

How could you

Call me your girl while living a whole other life

Leading me to believe that one-day I'd be your wife

Telling lies after lies until one couldn't cover the other

I'm walking with egg on my face now because I should've listened to my mother

She told me you didn't seem like you were any good

But I didn't want to believe her words because you were sexing me too damn good

I truly loved you

How could you

Take my love for granted

I'm doing my part thinking we're watering seeds that I thought we both were planting

Waiting for our love to grow

And here you are putting on a damn show

N**** you gotta go

And don't com...

Speeding

I'm going 90 in a 65

Trying to escape my feelings

Trying to run away from all the memories

And leave behind all of our dealings

Trying to get away from destruction

Because my heart is all I've got

Running away from the nothing you gave

While I've realized I've given alot

I've been your wife without a ring

I've cooked and I've cleaned and did all the wifely things

I've protected your heart

While you've been on a mission to destroy mine from the very start

I've loved you and couldn't get any returned

Now all I get to run away with is all the lessons I've learned

I've been burned and I've been scarred

You've completely distroyed my feelings

And left them for me to discard

Now I'm riding and fleeing from the emotions

Still wondering why did I feel like you were even worth my devotion

I'm going 90 in a 65

Trying ...

In My Feelings

All up in my feelings

Emotions digging deep

A million thoughts of how I feel inside

Making it hard for me to sleep

I don't know when exactly

Things began to change

When did I actually start to care

I tried so hard to lock down my heart

I acted as if it wasn't even there

But somewhere along the way 

He stole my key

Like a thief in the the night

And I went along with it

As if it was alright

I knew I wasn't ready to love

The way he wanted me too

But if I tell you right now

That I didn't love him

That just simply wouldn't be the truth

Now I'm all in my feelings

And that's not where I wanted to be

Trying hard not to overwhelm myself

But it's impossible not to overthink

I know this is where 

I always go wrong

Because I won't let things just be 

I won't let myself und...

Muse

You provoke my thoughts

Influencing my intellect

Manipulate my creativity

You conjure my speech

And defibrillate my mind

Sending shocks to my brainwaves

When my thoughts I can't seem to find

You are my inspiration

You provide me with positive stimulation

You knock down barriers

Intended to block

That's why I need your energy to stay on lock

The inspiration you provide I can not lose

Because I've never in my life

Had such a powerful Muse✍️

Need to Breathe

Here we are again

 Fussing and fighting

You're throwing things

While I'm sitting here crying

I don't know how much more of this I can take

All I know is that our happiness is what we have at stake

Everyday you're shouting

And I shake my head because this love I'm doubting

We both have so much more life to live

I really don't think there's anything left in this relationship to give

So let's part ways before hate begins to manifest

Let's not hold on to anger and give our hearts a rest

I'm slowly suffocating

And the only thing I could resort to is me isolating

Let's just go our separate ways please

Because I have a desperate need

To simply breathe

No Lie

I tell you no lie

Everywhere I go

Inspiration meets me

It speaks to me mentally

It paints an image in my mind

It provides me with words

That makes the picture come alive

I do this without a try

That's no lie

I tell you no lie

Everywhere I turn

Creativity provokes me

It sends verses through my head

It evokes things that I've heard

It reminds me of things I've said

It keeps me up at night in my bed

Until I scribe the ideas it conceives

Creativity sometimes makes me want to cry

That's no lie

 I tell you no lie

Everywhere see

My imagination gets the best of me

It makes me see things that just can not be

It creates metaphors of nature

It intensifies my senses

It gathers unfamiliar ideas

It allows me to see beyond the s...

The Essence Of You

Your essence is like the sun

The way it warms my heart

The way it makes my smile bright

When I'm in your presence

All because of your essence

Woman Called Snake

She is the devil's best friend

Her job is to manipulate

Peer pressure persuades her

Uses her to do it's dirty work

She stands Hand in hand with ignorance

Content with not knowing any better

Intimidated by all things good

And hating everything pure and sweet

A true friend she'll never make

WHO IS SHE?

A woman Called Snake

She has the mentality of the ghetto

Which is all she knows

She's in love with her environment

Bowing down to it's wicked blows

She worships the death of her surroundings

Burning everything at the stake

WHO IS SHE?

A Woman Called Snake

Killing happiness is her goal

She carries pain with her

Everywhere she goes

She nurtures envy Like a child

She's cool with greed

And kisses lust

She's angry with the world

And destr...

Can I Go

Can I go with you

On this imaginary ride

Where our pens glide

And our words collide

I'm ready to relax my mind

And let our vibes intertwine

So go ahead and educate

I love when you stimulate

My senses

Did I mention

It is my every intention

To put you under my spell

Can't you tell

The way the rhyme of my words

Pound against the drum in your mind

Have you thinking Damn I can't wait till our flows combine

You have moved me creatively

Now I want to share my expressive way of being

You don't have to be left alone with your pen

Because I'm asking you

Can I go with you

I really want to

Go with you on this journey through your notebook

Let me take a look

At where your mind travels

To a place where true passion exist

Let me taste your potion

So that I can experi...

I Cry

Why do you make me cry

Words of acid you spit

Your actions are always slick

And I'm sorry but my skin

Is just not that thick

So why do you make me cry

I'm trying to understand

I suppose to be your loving mate

But you act as if I'm someone you hate

Hate is such a harsh word

So let me reiterate

You clearly don't like me that much

Because if you did you wouldn't speak to me

Like I don't matter and such

Have you ever loved someone

That just don't seem to like you

Well for me I have to wonder

Am I just something to do

Why play with my emotions

And cause me so much pain

I'm really trying to figure it out

What is there to gain

From you treating me as if my heart is trash

Then turn around hugging and kissing

Like I suppose to recover that fast

What I've come to realize