I've Realized

Why Not?

Often times I've asked for relief,

from struggles I thought that weren't for me. 

I've fallen and struggled to my feet,

just to fall again then ask why me.

Why must I suffer with so much difficulty and pain. 

Why must I walk with no coverage,

through the acid filled rain.

Why must I always hurt, 

why must my tears always spill.

Burning my eyes like cuts that's alcohol filled.

But still,

I must walk as if everything is fine,

struggling to walk this straight and narrow line.

So I dropped to my knees to ask the good lord above, 

what did I do to be so unworthy of your love.

For the first time in my life I heard his words as clear as day,

and listened very closely to every word he had to say.

He said,

It is because I love you I allow the wounds you've earned.

I've Realized

I've realized

My circle has gotten small

I've done some trade outs

But I don't care at all

I'm better without

The poison in people's heart

Spreading falsified love

And unverified truths

Negativity in their actions

And deciet in their eyes

Prepared to present despise

Spitting acid with their words

Burning the ears of the righteous

Hollering friend this and friend that

But when I'm in serious need where my friend at

I'm done with all the unnecessary lies

I've realized

There's nothing about any of that will elevate my rise

Being around so much mess

My life is going no where fast

And in order for me to embrace my positive light

I have to let go of things that just ain't right

I've realized.🤔

Love

Unconditional

Respect and Understanding

Hate has no place here

Revolving Door

I close the door on heartbreak

I close the door on pain

I decided it's time to live my truth and close the door on shame

I  close the door on hatred

I close the door on lies

I'm done with stress and depression

So I'm closing the door on cries

I open the door to health

I open the door to love

I decided it's time to trust in God and accept his gifts from above

I open the the door to peace

I open the door to prosperity

No more negativity and I say this with nothing but genuine sincerity

I welcome joy and serenity into my revolving door of life

Be careful what you let inside

Because somethings come with a price

In this new life I live

I close the door to the past

It's all about what lies ahead

And building something that last

To all the things that damage my soul

I have to say goodbye 

Divorce in Nature

The intense beating of a broken heart

An erratic rollercoaster of emotions

Leading to a river of tears

As the wind whistles faint whispers that evokes memories that plays out in the clouds

A whirlwind of leaves forming sculptures of two

Laughing, dancing, and enjoying togetherness

Birds meet beak to beak

And the sun shines upon it all

Reassurance that it is good in the eyes of God

Raindrops fall and the birds fly into the leaves

And the wind sends them on their way

An eruption of thunder deafens the whistling wind

Dark clouds takes ownership of the skies

The river begins to flood

And the rollercoaster flies off the rails

A broken heart completely shattered💔

Conception of Day

The sun greets the day

Light quickly turns into dark

A moon kissed goodnight

Absolutely Not

You don't want a good woman

You want a woman that acts good

A woman without morals and standards

Let's get this understood

If I want to save myself for marriage

I'm not worth quality time

You say you want a woman that's worth being had

And even though you're not my husband

You expect me to give "YOU" what's between my legs

Let me get this straight

I'm boring because I stay at home cooking and keeping my life discreet

Now what if I was the type that stayed out all night

Ripping and running the streets

Jumping in and out of so called relationships with every man I happen to meet

Saying it's okay to give him my goods because he's coming home to me

Is this the type of woman you desire me to be

Absolutely not

Sorry, I can only be me!

You don't want a Good woman

You want a woman that looks good

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Unconditional Love

The hardest part is

Loving even when there is no

Love being returned

Lesson Learned

It's a fine time to say goodbye when things had just got real 

After nine whole months of love making and now you just can't deal

Did I want this to happen, we were just having fun trust me this is not ideal

Now that I'm left holding all the responsibilities imagine how I could feel

We've spent so much time now I'm dropped like a dime with all this stress left in my possession

And I'm trying my best to keep my cool and suppress all of this aggression

Because trust me busting your windows and acting a fool will be right up my alley

Leaving me has taken the cake and stolen all the tallies

I thought that you would do the right thing but you wanted to dilly dally

I've learned my lesson on how to get screwed and still walk in great fortitude

So all that's left for me to do is to is try my best not raise another you!

Mute America

Silence takes over

When there is a desperate

Need of being heard