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I was sick
Very sick
Barley healing from this illness
The nurses told me my WBC was low
Wondering if me living my life full of bliss
Had anything to do with it?
I would still go out
Just to have a good time
With knowing
My life could be gone within a drop of a dime
Fine,
She was
I saw her: An Angel
But quickly pushing thoughts in the back of my mind
Of her at different angles
Like a chandelier
She hang and shinned so bright
Dam/ near blew my mind when she said "HI"
We
Quickly engaged in conversation
Shi/ I got lost in her words
Her beautiful lips moving up and down
Next thing u know we’re making plans and reservations
When she finally walked away, I closed my eyes and heard a familiar sound
My heart beat
Getting weaker by the week
The Dr. Said I didn't have that much time
But she
Took my mind away...........
At times when I saw her
I honestly didn't know what to say
I promise time must have slowed down when she walked pass
Everyone would look and see
Those amazing legs of hers,
Her flawless hair, her teeth
Naw,
I didn't want to believe that
Their was a possibility that she could end up with me!
Shortly, we start spending time
Together
Whether she laughed or her touch
Was enough to keep me living beyond my ending months
Her smile,
Made me vision us, walking down the aisle
Her personality, was insanely like mines
And she was so beautiful that I couldn't help
But to think of how it would be, if I had her bent over from behind
I didn't tell her I was dying
Cause I was afraid of seeing her crying
I just wanted to enjoy
Enjoy the last days
Of my life
And honestly, she doesn't know
That she is the reason that I'm still alive
My heart beat, is getting weaker by the week
And I'm thinking about telling her
But this is a secret I wanna keep
So I buy her this gorgeous white dress
And left her a note that reads
"Meet me at dinner (Fogo de Chao) 7:30"
And don't be late please
I had to tell her soon
Cause eventually she'd know
I could no longer wake up an hour before her every morning to take my medication
So therefore, the symptoms would begin to show
I could no longer watch her fall asleep
Just so she wouldn't see me checking my blood
And my failing heart beat
She was beautiful as the horizon
At sea
When the sun starts rising
It wasn't just her looks
She was smart and loved to read books
She was a poet
Wrote a book about her life
She had won my heart in every way and didn't even know it
I sat her down at dinner and sat directly across
Looked dead into her eyes, as the candles burned
She was lost
She had never seen me look this way
It was as if she knew exactly what I was about to say
She interrupted said WAIT!!!
I thought I could handle it
But I never wanted to see u die
I caught feeling and after you would fall asleep
I laid there and watched you sleep
And I cried
My attentions were never to hurt you, I just wanted you to get better
I felt sorry, but not once did I EVER
Plan to hurt you, I just wanted to see u smile
And your smile made it difficult, all the while
I've been meaning for some months to tell u
But I can no longer handle this, I have to leave you
I knew you were sick
The plan was for u to get better
Burt not really
I’m just a bad person
All my life
I’ve been know for my beauty
And you surprise me when you walked by and said excuse me
Usually, guys are just all about the physical attraction
But not you
I began to ask myself why?
And was truly intrigued by your intellect
But in the end all that mattered was a check
You don’t get it
I’ve been used all my life
Like a piece of meat
So I decided to pray on the weak
I knew this lady whom heart you once broke
I swore I would never say her name
But you left her out in the cold
She explained that you were sick
And at times you’d get really weak
But money is the reason you’ve lived this long
And money is something I need
I'm SOOOOOO sorry
I’ve learned that you are a really nice person
And u honestly don’t deserve this
I was stuck
It was as if weights were holding me down
I cancelled out every noise and just herd the sound
Of her voice
My body temperature was getting warmer
As I couldn’t fathom
Her having a plan and a choice
It was a lot to take in
Too much actually
My heart
Was getting weaker
This time by the second not the week
She began to get up
To walk away
Walk right out of my life
I put my hand on hers
And asked her to stay
Tears were rolling from her eyes as if she was hurt
I looked right into her eyes with a smirk
You think you can just walk away
No love lost
And not Pay
Well before you get up and leave for good
Let me put something on your heart
While you were being mischievous
The root cause of my sickness is not really my heart
I gave you something that you can’t give back to me
But can give to someone else
Now you can go, leave
And see if there is anyone around for help
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