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Can nothing mend the pain I hold so dearly to?

Can nothing bequeath this flame I wish to diminish within an already burning soul?

A plague of bad vibes are my only company as I take a stand alongside myself

To witness betrayal for I am not strong enough to stand on my own.

Why do I doubt my abilities and most of all why do I doubt my own blessings?

Taken away are happiness I dive deep into a mind riddled with questions with known answers,

Searching high and low for new ones,

But there are no where to be found for there is only true one answer.

Why must I question my loyalty to God when He has already done so much for me?

Why must I constantly tell myself that His Love will never leave and yet I feel that He has left me?

A diluted question for His Love is eternal.

The Love trapped in my heart pleads for freedom from my animosity,

flapping its powerful wings only to struggle against a formidable foe fueled by my self pity.

A simple whisper, "Forgive me my Love." as I take matters into my own damaged hands to fight

Against an enemy that it far stronger than I.

God?

Are you there?

Answer me for I feel not your presence.

To the ends of my mind I have searched for solutions only to find one,

And that is to stay near to you.

Why?

Why do I take my life into my own hands knowing that I will be defeated each time?

Why must I phyically conquer myself and look for pity from others only to be ignored?

Why must I hurt those who love because of my selfish desires to get what I want?

Upon my knees I beg of you to forgive me only to committ the same act I previously did.

Am I not giving it my all?

Tears I shed for all to see and yet....and yet...they feel so empty and impure.

Forgive me for I am praying unjustly.

Hear my heart for it screams for healing.

I am my worst enemy as I defeat myself at each turn.

I am only human, and yet...and yet...What is to become of me if I continue along this path of destruction?

The fear of not finding the One you have set aside torments me so for I know she is right behind me,

And yet....and yet....her presence I do not feel.

Heavenly Father, each day I live in regret.

When will I truly live?

Impatience is an ally I wish not to associate myself with,

but impatient ways I've grown accustomed to already.

Am I truly saved?

Or am I living a double life deciding which master to fully serve?

In Heaven where you reside Lord show me my path so I may step upon it,

For the path I am currently on is not where I want to be any longer.

I am weary.....so very weary.

What tomorrow holds for me I wish not to know.

Through these words I hope that it reaches you Lord

For the questions that invaded my mind I wish to fully understand them...

Guide me.

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		jojo says: And He will. i fully understand all this because i too used to feel that way. Just give it to God and watch Him show up and show out! poems by this commentor Modern Day Slavery The Beast Within A knucklehead
		j.king337 says: :) poems by this commentor Caught Up In My Feelings Venom: Animosity Averted Invisible

OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY J.King337

The Night

The night brings about our deepest fears, as shadows from our fearful minds dance among the five senses. We tend to forget how beautiful the night is. the stars illuminate the moon's many phases commands the tides of our sunken emotions and rest comes easy to those who embrace it's comfort from today's issues.

FREESTYLE

I spit fire to set aflame the pages of my biography, call me an arsonist.

words of multiple meanings tell of a complex, yet simple personality,

change 123.

knowledge earned from constant battles of hardship, I am legend,

being reborn again as God breathes new life in me, I rise like the Pheonix.

homeward bound since birth I do not belong here,

each day I continue my journey towards the end of days I show no fear.

far from lonely the enemy can never own me,

I bear my armor, sword, and shield against foes who show no mercy.

I stand firm in my beliefs praying daily to God,

storing mp3s of musical hymns and the Word to keep me going for my brain is an Ipod.

here I stand,

words of yesterday I spoke of my testimony,

exposing myself for all to see.

I acknowledged my flaws, guilt, and shame,

for all of you were a witness to what I beca...

It Speaks For Itself (Freestyle Contest)

Unusual, weird, comical, annoying,

Describe me with every syllable and I say to you, "Etcera."

Hypocrite, judgemental, procrastinator, liar, weak,

Spread rumors of me and I say to you,"So what? "

I am here on this earth not to please you,

But you insist on trying to remove the plank that's in my eye;

Failing to realize that you too have one in your own eye.

I pity you as I laugh at your shortcomings,

Struggling to tear down my walls while I simply rebuild it;

Adding new bricks my future is already determined.

Just beyond my tunnel is a light so bright,

My struggle is near its end,

A new chapter I eagerly await to read what's next.

You may continue to watch my every move as much as you want,

For I take delight in pissing you off,

and as I make moves to further my dreams;

Your existence will only be an imagination.

Lyrical Flow of Victory From the Nameless Masses

Spittin' rhymes of a future only tenacious fools can visualize,

I welcome unacceptable torture from furious idols fighting for an unknown prize.

I fuel my thoughts distilled with glorious tools of destruction its made known to the wise,

Follow my plight until you become lost within the shades of fifty levels,

Bejeweled from the riches sent from Hades a hefty amount of consequences lay before you;

I dare you to run as devil dogs chase and bite at your ankles.

You claim to be truthful when your lips rehearse lies of shame I witnessed your deceitful blues.

Living life as though you were a righteous hypocrite you leave bhind esolveable clues,

Thinking your life is a struggle take time to walk in my shoes.

I speak for the ones who know trouble and embrace its negativity,

Breaking free from its grasp and press on to taste the sweetness of victory;

Praying and fasting to repent for their sins a...

Letting You Go

Into your arms you welcome me,

A peace so surreal I feel as though it is a dream.

Each morning I thank God to be alive,

Only to sin as we embrace and reconnect our bonds.

Your kiss of emptiness taints my thought process,

Mindless I become losing focus with each breath I take.

As the sun reaches its peak,

My lust for you quickens.

I yearn for your taste once more.

I must have it I say!

Ignited passion spoils over from your love filter,

Your taste dissipates all things negative;

And for a moment I am free.

Only for a moment I feel warmth,

But as that moment resides I am left with nothingness.

The sun rests and the moon awakens,

Loneliness creeps in through the door I intentionally left open.

She caresses my mournful heart playfully,

Teasing me I struggle to fight only to lose.

Again I feel your warmth and just as quick as she came i...

The Web of Deception

No Remorse for actions against love,

Deception flows fluently from his tongue;

a whisper of truthful lies in her ear she believes.

"You are my light that shines the brightest,

A star like no other I cherish wholeheartedly;

From the depths of my soul is a love that blossoms just for you,

To comfort and embrace you each time we reunite.

Spring's aura of blissful radiance is overshadowed next to yours,

A glow of happiness I wish to have all for myself.

"A match predestined to happen,

The events that led us to this moment,

The words we spoken from our hearts,

The time we spent together is part of an

amazing story already foretold.

Come away with me my dove,

Let us become one just the heavens preordained."

He smiles a devious smile,

Into her eyes he sees love of purity;

A love that his darkness thirsts for.

His web of deception has bee...

Caught Up In My Feelings

Unspoken words I say to you,

Upon a full moon our paths cross;

But alas we are worlds apart.

Free of the so-called bond we once shared,

Do either of us dare to speak a simple "Hello?"

To say such words our lips do not part,

Friendship shattered only emptiness my heart may rightfully bear.

From afar I witness beauty,

Melancholy tones harmonize in unity,

An unique atmosphere only you possess;

but the animosity geared towards you I truly detest.

Blaming myself for the entire mishap,

Failing to grasp the outcome in its entirety.

Unforseen signs my eyes seen yet did not wish to achknowledge;

That you too played a magnificent role in this as well!

From my shell I onced dwelled I seen new light my spirit uplifted and swelled,

Willing to share my world with an angel sent just for me....

Intermission is at hand for the scenes has changed,

Th...

The Untitled Journey (The Light Within Me)

Alone amidst the shadows,

A zone where light seeks solitude,

Expressions cease to exist,

And reason becomes illogical.

Death becomes irrational,

Taking the lives of the innocent;

As the thought of living brings about fear unparalleled.

Faith is suffocated by thorny bushes,

Prematurely nurtured only to perish in its prime,

Confidently falling back to allow the "The Norm" to proceed,

Smiling to mask the pain unbearable.

Where is my light?

Outstretched hands I frantically grasp the unreachable.

My heart calls to me, "I am here!"

My spirit yells, stay strong and believe!"

From within a flicker of light shines faintly.

A warmth so soothing tears overwhelm me.

"Why are you here amongst the shadows?

Why do you evoke death to rob you of what is unique to you?

I shine only for you, why have you forsaken me?

Love me as I love you,

Cheri...

Untitled

Take from me a partial of my integrity,

A moment to recognise what has been stolen,

I foresee options unparalleled to a level beneath me.

Intact are my emotions no longer a factor,

Reasons are active resolving each conflict,

A plan takes flight but to nowhere it lands upon deaf ears.

In a daze I realize my fears,

My weaknesses as well as my strengths,

My pride and my sorrow,

Pain that leads to confidence renewed;

Who am I to steal from myself that has formed me

Into the man I am today?

From this scene I return to where it all began,

Thoughts of love and as time progressed,

Love became a metaphor.

Thoughts of hatred and as time progressed,

Hatred became love.

Who am I to neglect the things that made me who I am?

My presence is unchanged,

Hear my thunderous battle cry,

For my integrity has returned on it own accord.

New Journey, Same Destination (hero contest)

Beaten but undefeated the war is far from over,

Beside me is God so there is no need to look over my shoulder,

Admist the raging storm I stood firm,

For I knew that if I quit then I've failed.

For our salvation to the cross He was nailed,

Believe what you will but truth is His word.

On this day I have witnessed a changed in me,

Still the same I remain but stronger I became,

Worries are negated for my tongue speaks not of defeat,

Lonliness I am not for loved ones present and gone are not forgotten,

Within me are the souls of my adorable parents,

Oh what a sensational feeling to know that I am well protected.

The devil is a lie if he thinks he has my soul,

I bathe in His almighty blood through Him I am made whole.

Fabricated schemes once set in motion by my hands are shredded,

For all my problems I bring it to the alter.

On a new journey is where I am headed,

But the destination is...