didn't deserve to be lied to.
I didn't deserve to be a pawn in your game
I didn't deserve to be pushed back when I pulled you closer.
I didn't deserve to wait for a text or call. You were answered every time.
I didn't deserve to give you my concern when you didn't show it for me.
I didn't deserve to lay alone every night while your home unbotherd..
I really didn't deserve to open my heart to you when you knew I was broken.
I did and in return you thought I deserved to have it broken.
You stripped my desire to love and trust.
My smile is now untrusting and my heart has frozen.
I didn't deserve to trust you, support you or be the things you were missing.
I didn't deserve to have my feelings hurt because I loved you.
I didn't deserve to feel what I told you shattered me.
Moser3333
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2b2b2 says: Poignant purge....Write On....thanks for sharing! |
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Charles2 says: Having been there... requires major adjustments, no fun ...on this roller coaster... The harder you try, the farther ...you fall... |
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WorthSo many tearing themselves down. Looking in the mirror and seeing a stranger. Tired of useless effort. Watching your smile fade. Pictures are what we use to be. Now I look at what we become. Never wanna point the blame. I'll tote that. Back has broken from carrying loads of promises unfilled. I wonder if your mind is gathering I held this life together. Alone. When your with someone else, do you care if I love you too. Now I'm left with what did I do? Asking myself did I push you away. How can I feel I did so much , maybe it wasn't mediocre. I can't detect the facts. Our signal has dropped and we don't connect. I feel unloved and unwanted. You showed me my worth |
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Show and Prove #BlacklivesmatterWhat's understood doesn't need to be explained. Stand outside and look in before you assume my character. Already convicted and sentenced. Serving time mentally trapped. Looked down at over a shade you can't identify with. Optimistic thoughts pushing on my ancestors spirituals. Gotta steal my success I paid for. Blood sweat and tears for a righteous way with illegal gain. That's the life I know. I can't afford your rich thoughts so I'll lay away and store my coins. Still feeling like I need to run and warn my children. Hide my husband. Sacrifice myself. Whose bus back seat will I sit on? Who will hear my dream? Will my actions have to be violence? By any means necessary? Has my black life matter? Will it matterd? Why can't my restitutions be my true freedom? Dragging chains and marks of society. How can I follow a road that's always blocked? Whose the real threat? My physical or my mental? |
QueenWhat are you worth? How much does your self respect cost? Don't mind me Queen just looking out. See you crying and you lying. Painting your face , who are you? Role model the truth instead live a lie. In the physical you smile You appear to be carefree. Worth has faded over time. What you accepted You now regret. Regards to the ones who got away. Karma for wanting a bad boy. Poor credit, past due accounts. Gotta rise up Bounce back Become reborn. Mind under construction To build the heart a better foundation. Rise to the throne Take place Be guided Be light Be life Give love Show power Queen |
ProceedIf you left do you think I'd care. Distance made my heart grow fonder. Looking in the mirror I'm not the same. Life tested me I win , I lost. Weighing the scale your heavy . I need to lose some weight. Lying and bribing me to advance. Still ground zero. I can't go on Leasing my time for free. In debt to none and owed by many. Spoken in silence. Butterfly effect has shaken our climate. Icy conversation with fire stares. Foot steps walk away never to return. Promises never kept Dreams are awaken in harsh reality. Once the person I hated I loves is now the person I have to turn my page on. No need to try we just need to proceed... |
Evil LoveYour no good for me. My mind ignores my heart. I continue to proceed. Days I swear I'm done You call I answer. Regret it later. Go back in my mind like I knew better. I never could deny you. Every word is always the truth. Grown and childish Amused and petty. Feel like I'm making excuses to have you near. Justifying when you neglect me. Words left a bruise Put a insurance policy on my heart died. Lay me down to "love" away the pain. Felt my tears on your chest. They singed. Yet you give all you have for the moment. All of a sudden we are in the moment. Ghostly your gone. Pierced mold of your shape. I failed again. Done with you and your evil love |
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