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In crescendo
You repeat the dreaded words
Attached to you and I
Spoken dynamite
Set fire to my darkest fears
Release the tears
As the love notes playing in my mind
Scream in pain and fly
Tears fly like rain…
Shallow, rapid breaths
Accentuate my stress
Penetrate the consciousness
Reverberations ripple across the space between
My unspent passions …and the dreams
Torn from the current like a hooked fish
Removed from the comfort and the calming sense
Of the way it was …and now
The shock explodes my momentary solace
My fantasy island still aflame
Swiftly disappears beneath the seas
Waves which echo in refrain
As if to complete the cause+effect
Drops like a stone from greater heights
Than I’d ever hoped to view …this way
The fear of falling far greater than the height
No need to fight the battle was lost before it started
In essence a broken tool with no purpose to fix
A side effect …with a chilling aftermath
The icy blast it carried brought the drain
Crashing through the corridors of my brain
Numbed with a natural Novocain
Chokes out the hope …now, how to cope
With the residue of what I knew
Still active in my thoughts
Though now addressed in flames
My command center of mind
Makes an opening move
Sidesteps the mess I walked into
Reattaches my head to toe control
Inserts a test pattern to renew the essence
Researches the cure withdraws a blessing
From the spiritual depository in my name
Of who I am …what you, now, are to me
Knocks the ball over the fence
And brings me back home
To the realization
…whatever the purpose
We were together has run its course
You made the choice now in play
No matter what I said, or did
Or what tone of voice, I used
Outside of the box was open
The inner side was locked
It no longer was left to me
The tables had turned
My bridge was burned
My bid was trumped
My hands were tied
I had been dumped
No longer could I expect
The arrival of your cavalry
To save the hides of the soldiers
Upon which I had relied to carry me
Into the enchanted forest of your dreams
Your chain of command had deliberated the verdict
All appeals had run their course and been denied
My last meal …although, as good as any I’d remembered
I could no longer enjoy …because what it represented
Your judgment came without fanfare and attitude
You had simply explained
As you had many times before
Then, issued the decree
The penalty was death of us
The words flowed past
And lost me
In the dust…
Of memories
What it had cost
For me to lose
My place with you
And so…even
In your memory
Your place with me
Has been erased
Even the stars
Have been displaced
Our next …plan
Became our last…
The bell tolled
A telling end
To our relationship
Too late, for hope
You pulled the trigger
Right between the eyes
…
I fall …in clouds of smoke
Funny, how …it’s all clear now…
Too late …to realize
As my heart comes to a stop
I look at you …
One
Last
Time…
The wrecking ball has spoken
The fresh wounds hole
Is still smoking…
You close my wide open eyes
Either out of pity
Or the question on your lips
Why I should look surprised
After all was said …and done
We were never
Meant to
Be
C2
