Among the darkness of my destruction I sense peace,
Visions long frozen in time are replayed as I see the devestation I caused.
I pushed and pursued too much even though I understood your words,
But in my vulerable moment I lost sight of my just actions.
You needed a friend.....nothing more,
I desired a partner....the reasons were full of seflish desires.
Irrevelent thoughts took hold of my mind as I gave them permission to carry on,
I sought after your company, and in truth it was returned......
I wanted more to feed my greed.
As I am my desire was companionship,
Postponing my goals to please the woman I've fallen for;
Expecting the worse to come into effect and once I get what I craved,
My heart takes the full force of the pain that I caused.
Am I truly alone?
No, for God is forever present in my life.
Am I weak?
No, for I am stronger than one thinks.
Will I ever find the One?
Yes, when God presents her to me.
From that darkness I slowly rise.
The tears I've shed has ceased,
the face of shame is now stern in conviction to regain the happiness long lost;
the heart now cloaked in new armor.
Hair once cut has grown to display the Black Panther within me,
For I am strong.
In a new light I present myself to you,
I thank you for allowing me to be apart of your world;
If only for a short time.
What you will now see is a man whose emotions for you no longer has an effect on me
For I have chosen to let them go, but I still acknowledge them.
What you will now see is a man who will harbor nothing against you because this is my doing.
If I appear cold I am sorry,
But in order for me to release what I hold dear I must do this.
What you will now see is a man who will never allow the weakness that still resides
Rear its ugly head ever again
For I am reborn.