Hard head Soft Ass
I’ve always had a problem with wanting things that just could not be…
As I child I often cried because, I wanted never ending weekends so I could be forever free.
I wanted candy for breakfast, popsicles for lunch and ice cream for dinner.
I wanted it to always be my turn and of course I wanted to always be the winner….,
“But That’s not how life works” became a mantra instilled in me many years ago.
Too bad old habits die hard, and that’s one that I could never quite let go.
I want you….
And In addition to it feeling normal these feelings also reign true.
I know that I shouldn’t,
I hear you saying we couldn’t,
I just can’t help but feel like we can….
You say this isn't that for you..
But it is for me.
So as far as where it’s going, I guess we just have to wait and see.... |
Til the pen runs dry
I told myself
That I’d write a three part love poem that had a very happy ending.
So certain how it would play out that I scribbled in the conclusion before the beginning.
I spoke of wedding bells and happy days,
Only to end with a leading actress wearing no face.
I’m writing a three part love poem and I no longer know who it’s about….
After the loudest whispers and quietest screams there’s only confusion to be sorted out.
So now I say I started a three part love poem that ran out of love before I ran out of words to say
I suppose that's why I talk in circles until my words to drift up and away.
I don’t know if I'm writing "it’s nice to meet you" or "it was good knowing you",
But,
I’m writing…
I’m living…
I’m losing…
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Ode to my secret Queen
She sprinkles me with her light showers every morning before I exit the door…
Usually vain efforts serving as a sample that only makes me want you more.
A silent tug of war
I leave her everyday, just to go to work and freely dream about you.
Needing more than just getting the job done and she can’t do what you do.
I like the splashes she leaves on my skin but they simply can’t compete,
With the way you fully engulf me in wetness and silence my desire to speak.
Peacefully drowning me.
You swallow me whole like a meal you’ve been dying to eat.
Gently pulling me under until we reach new heights.
No arguments
No fights
Other than me fighting to stay when I know it’s our time to end
I tend to stand over you staring and debating if we should go again
But…
We don&rsqu... |
The Quietest Scream
After a few trips around the sun,
at last we reunited under the stars.
The moon being the sole keeper of our secrets
Using privacy to protect this love we call ours.
Love songs resounding in the background happy and sad alike,
Once again we joined hands and danced the words to the most confusing love story I’d ever write.
Twisting,
Twirling,
Whirling,
To songs of heartbreak, pain, and pleasure.
Winding,
Grinding,
Sliding,
To songs of past, forever and never…
She pressed her body onto mines and let me know that our hearts still had matching beats.
Hypnotizing rhythmic drumming keeping me oblivious to her taking over me.
The vibrations of her voice and laughter traveled through my veins,
And the image of her smile firmly planted itself deeply into my brain.
She snatched my heart out and... |
Doom
Her phone…..
Makes a lot of noise while she’s asleep.
All the different songs and buzzes gently pound against the outermost layer of my Cerebral cortex.
Or,
maybe thats just me over thinking…..
I mean it’s really none of my business to be thinking at all.
Besides,
if she’s here with me
physically,
why should I care about who’s on the other end of a phone call...
or text..
Let me lie back down
and lie to myself,
About what this really is and how much it means to me.
She’s free
I’m free
So we can be
Whatever we want to be
And if we choose to live this life differently
Then we must accept living life separately
Respectfully
I know
For us
There is no infinity or beyond for this temporary universe we've created,
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One Love
race war and a global pandemic yet my identity crisis is at an all time high,
The world loves me and hates me both at the same d*mn time,
And I
don’t know who I want to be.
I mean
Scratch that
I should say I don’t know which me I’m allowed to be.
See,
When I’m in the driveway dribbling and shooting with the guys,
The whole neighborhood watches with love and adoration in their eyes,
But in that same neighborhood
Those same neighbors show that taking a walk down the street can be unwise.
A Sunday stroll could end up earning me a Monday in jail.
No bail,
Just a delayed release....
Because
they love and they hate me....
They Love to hate me,
Yet Hate to love the culture thats in me.
The culture that get shamed publicly, ... |
Facebook Friends
Jealousy....
A raging Demon inside of me,
But How could it even be
That every like and comment you get, drives me past insanity.
Actually,
Insanity might be pretty sane compared to me,
Because factually
I lost my mind 314 days 10hours & 29 minutes ago when you first said hi to me.
I told you that I hate you even acknowledged me,
But honestly
I hate how much I love you.
Now....
where do we go from here?
Uncomfortably boxed into a friend or peer,
But deep down I know the love is there.
Just say Go,
Or come here,
Or yes,
Just don’t say no,
And I promise To leash the beast inside of me.
A stray dog with a new home!
Vaughn can keep his fingers as long as he keeps them on his side of the keyboard.
Mr. Webber can live as long as he sticks to saying ok and no more.
Henry was supposed to be ... |
Insomniac Dreams
Last night...
I dreamt of you in such a way that makes Pornhub seem PG13.
There wouldn’t even be a category to classify the different things I had seen.
It started with the softest touch to a most sensitive area on your body
Which oddly,
Embraced me. Filling my hands with a love one notch short of Godly.
Angelic sounds escaped through the lips you bit down on to try and hold them in.
Followed by gasp matching the patterns I painted with my forefinger on the other end.
Circular motions while pulling you closer
Until you leaned in for this kiss.
This Kiss
That....Kiss....
The one that opened up the door to a parallel universe in which gravity ceased to exist.
So as I lifted you up, your clothing majestically floated away
Revealing a way
For me to play
Insert..... my.... face.....
Stuck in time, |
This is Me
A lot of people meet someone new,
and the first thing they do
is play 21 questions.
However,
I was cut from a different cloth.
Born to Go against the grain,
Kind of strange,
But I prefer to prematurely surrender 12 facts associated with my name.
One...
Ever since I was a kid I've always hated to get my hands dirty.
No mud,
No bugs,
No Play-Doh,
No handshakes unless I have sanitizer everywhere I go.
Two....
Life is a dirty game that I've contemplated washing my hands of on several occasions.
Three...
I love my mom.
Main reason I'm still here.
I love my brother, sister, and father too,
but
I love my mom.
Three...
My mom hated majority of the girls I've dated.
Not to say that's where we're headed.
Just want you to... |
Quarantine Vibez
Drinking whiskey out of a wine glass
Thinking about times past to pass time
Quarantine Vibes...
Outside is a no go,
Inside is a show.
Turn off the radio...the news,
No more YouTube conspiracy views,
JUST BREATHE.....
because
Every blessing can be a curse in some
kind of way,
likewise every curse contains some kinda of blessing at the end of the day.
Repair those broken in home relationships your normally leave to evade.
Cook meals and eat better,
Sleep better,
Read and Write,
Utilize this God given time to pray every night.
All we have is TIME....
but it's slowly ticking AWAY.....
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