i must remind myself
marriage is not my salvation
the Lord of Heaven's armies is
Jesus Christ
the Unique one who
died on the cross
and was raised from the
dead on the third
day
He is the one who saved me
God loves me as a person
and i must stop allowing this lie to repeat in my mind
that i have to stay married to
her in order to
be close with God
the devil is a lie
God created me and knew me
before i was born
He loves me as an individual
and im worthy of a loving
marriage
a marriage where i can be treated
like a man
a real man of God
im tired of being downplayed and
mistreated
slept on
discounted
because of my gentleness
i love and i love hard
i know i am a worthy catch
i am a blessing to my dream wife
this toxic behavior is destroying
my peace of mind
and representation
of myself to me
i know i am a sinful man
i know i am far from perfect
but at least i can admit that
i make mistakes
i do not deserve to be talked to like that
i don't deserve to be talked down to and
constantly put down
than wickedly accused of doing the same
thing
marriage is not my salvation
Jesus is
He is the one who died for me
before i even knew how to breathe
how to say
Abba
He spoke me into existence
He loves me and wants me to
be with Him forever
i don't have to be with
one particular human being
in order for me to be with Him forever
that's not even scriptural
it doesn't say that anywhere in His word
i am worthy of His love
i will not be moved by money
and rewards
i am tired of the devil trying to tell
me that apart from her i won't be anything
and i will crash and burn
the devil is a lie!
God formed me from the dust of the
earth and if He wanted to
He could form me again
He loves me and wants my heart and
no other idols
right now
i feel like i have mad this relationship
out to be somewhat of an idol
i have allowed this marriage to
be more important to me
than the One who established
marriage on this earth
Lord
i rather be alone and have you than to
be with someone who constantly
makes me feel bad for wanting
to always spend time
with you
i actually enjoy being by myself
i don't mind actually
because i know in truth
i am not by myself
you told me Lord
that you would be with me forever
even until the end of the age
thank you for giving me your lovely spirit
i need you Lord and i want you
more than ever
i love the way you make me feel
that warm loving feeling in my heart
that tingle of joy
of wholeness
of completeness
thank you for restoring me
this heaviness of heart
Lord
please discard it from me
whatever it is that is causing me to
be faint of heart
please remove it
You are my salvation
please remove this lie from my consciousness
that this marriage is the reason for
my salvation
you groomed me before and prepared
me
before i was even born
i am worthy of love
i am worthy of respect
i am worthy of being treated with dignity
and honor
if i am misunderstood
let it be for your glory
i know i can rebuild
i know i am being made whole
but i also know that you love me
and will always be with me
i want to be with you Lord
i wouldn't mind if you took me
up and away even now
at this moment
but nevertheless
thank you Lord
for destroying the lie
that my marriage is my salvation
thank you Jesus.
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