⏳⏳⏳ to myself 📌📌📌

😔

Should I assume

That you won’t be coming over tonight?

Should I assume 

That it’s just going to be me 

Under candlelight? 

Guess I cleaned up for nothing. 

Guess that’s what I get for rushing. 

Thought that four course meals

On silver platters 

Would put a smile on your face. 

I knew that you preferred 

Dessert on side plates. 

I just wanted to make sure 

That you were full

While you were in my space. 

I stayed up all night

Dreaming of what we could be. 

Wish I were the type

To just get the D

And go to sleep.

⏳⏳⏳ to myself 📌📌📌

Every time 

I feel you are about to open up,

You go and remind me

That you are not in love

By cherry-picking external interests

Right in my face. 

My mistake

For banking on the promises

That you presented 

On a silver platter. 

By now,

I should definitely recognize 

Your patterns. 

You give just enough

To get a ðŸ–ðŸ–ðŸ–

Then,

You’re back

To the other side of the tracks 

Flaunting your greener grass. 

What an ass 

You make of me every time. 

And what a fool I make of myself

By crossing every single line

That you draw in the sand. 

I always find myself

Disregarding prior illusions 

Just to hold your hand

For walks on the beach

🔥🔥🔥 Ignited 🔥🔥🔥

Don’t remember 

The last time

I was this excited

To have someone in my space.

Hope you’re on your way.

I can already feel you.

Don’t remember

The last time

I stressed over 

What to wear.

Hope you see me

As more than

But another option 

Drifting 

In the air. 

When’s the last time

You woke up

Feeling fulfilled?

Hopefully

After I put you to bed,

You will know

It’s real.

I’ve 

Been running around 

Searching for your reflection.

You’ve 

Been headed in the wrong direction...

...up until now. 

Hope you feel the same

Once you’re around.

Hope you feel common ground,

Hope you feel a common flam...

The View

Feeling great.

Running late. 

Forgive me.

I’m traveling 

From outer space.

The man of my dreams

Has me in orbit 

With constellations 

That I always thought

Were out of my means.

Never meant to sell myself short. 

All my life,

I had been investing in miracles 

That I had to abort.

Even after

Leaving my bags on the porch,

I just couldn’t find anyone

To fit me in

The picture

That resided behind the door. 

And then,

There was him

With a love so wide

That it could cover the sea. 

He’s not perfect

But,

He’s just right for me. 

He’s beautiful

And humble

And just possessive enough

To keep the fire blazing. 

Narrow

I know 

You’re somewhere 

Sober.

Meanwhile

For me,

It’s over.

I’ve never been 

Under so many influences 

In my life.

I never thought

This is what it would take

To keep you 

Off my mind.

Perhaps 

I should be more mindful

Of tomorrows.

Perhaps 

Better days will follow.

But for the moment,

My current situation

Has me contemplating 

Washing it all away.

Can’t believe 

You allowed her to take my place

Right in my face. 

I know we had a lot 

On our plate

But,

I never thought

You would leave dirty dishes

At the table

And reach for fables

To tuck you in.

Can’t really say