As you sleep...

When Love Left me !!!

 So one day love decicded to pack his sh** and leave.

But before you do , can you help me comprehend 

after all you have put me through 

i was never broken , but i did bend 

But then again , Love can be selfish 

willing to walk out on the very best thing that you ever had 

you must be blind , love 

you want ,what you want 

when you want it , how you want it ....

at what cost ?

A payment of my heart the only one i got 

and if  you waste one day 

I can never get that back

Love you were suppose to be the Noun of my life 

the Person i cant live without 

the Place i never wanted to leave 

the Thing that means so much to me 

Love i expected so much more .....

I hear all this wonderful stuff and see happy people 

But when it comes to you and me 

...

boom , there it is !

ugh ima make this short and sweet

because personally im sick of this

life is too short for this foolishness

look-a-here player

It makes me sick to deal with a Mr. Fix it type of man

in the beginning you knew where you stand

with a masterplan in the back of your head

like a witch , just waiting to cast your spell

a wolf in sheep clothing

preying on the innocent one

you should be ashame of all the issues your have produced

and frankly , im totally done with you

i will no longer be yo fool.....

you take 3 steps foward , then 6 steps back

and that personality you once had , now , simply lacks

so consider me done and exposion at its end ............

and BOOM , there it is !!!!!!

                        &...

The women of my dream

She is crafted with the finest ingredients

mixed well together to be the most beautiful women life has ever seen

the hell gets hotter , and the fire keeps burning

but like a diamond

She came out shining

Other women test her

thinking they can control her mind

but truth is

they going out of Their Way

to show & tell

selling their souls for a slope fall to hell

and ladies alll of your tatics......Fail !!

And when she speaks her voice carries strength

after lifing wights and discipline

her mind is in shape

and backstabbers looks a little over weight

She sits back and watch others stir up a hot mess

trying to complete a puzzle with missing pieces

but clearly thats impossible

she is daring and very determined to reach the Remarkable

her heart is guarded but willing

people point out the wall built to protect it

A mind is a terrible to waste !!

You dont have to be in prison to be a prisoner

your mind is still trapped

failing to acknowledge who you are

everbody attached to you will suffer until you get set free

You sit back and lie to yourself

that this is the way life should be

Negro , a hard life is not the only way to build identity

Going though situations just to say

"You dont know what i have been though "

is not the only way God can use you

Yet , you settle for weekly visits

seperated by glass

with no human interaction .....

Can you sense my frustaration !!!

I can see your potential

and where God can take you

Yet , you waste energy

trying to fill up holes ....more like an empty soul ....

but dont you know......

That high will go away , that hang over will never stay, and that sripper will stop dancing when she gets paid

what im really trying to say

What it is :)

Its just something about when a wise person speaks

its like being refreshed on a mountain peaks

i have never been up that high , or even tried to climb

but if my words can create visions , then i will Speak it Alive

To know the path of the past

is just motivation for what is yet to come

REAL POETS STAND UP , the world need some

of what we have to offer .......

When history speaks my heart tends to open

more then my mouth

But thats fine , its a safe place just in case , things go south

I have respect for most of the poets i come across

because writing and reading is fundimental

thats what i was taught

and to mix up your words with a little expression

is another way to share your emotions compassion

So , to all the people who write with a purpose

nothing but love is flowing from me

allow you pen and paper to make lo...

Speak It !!!!

life seem brighter since i've learned a women's worth

low-self esteem had my mind trapped like detention

not knowing it can be defeated

detention was just a way to get your attention 'Not kill ya '

Since i have came into the knowlegde of who I am

i have improved " Communication"

Perfecting my craft daily " Dedication"

shedded my snake skin to reveal a new me "High school Diploma"

comfortable in my skin " meditate in this aroma "

I just want a spot in heaven " Earn"

along the way , digest , all the many lessons i have learned

my life was already wrote out

In God We Trust

if you are living , without life , then H*ll you just a bust

that comes and go

do you really want to be a walking one night stand ?

and the world remember what you did but forget your name !!!!

life is a blessing and to live it is a Must !!

So why do we beco...

As you sleep...

As you sleep.......

I think about all the hell you have put me though

the money , the tears , lies and the many things you pursue

You went out and slept with the devil

you are an STD ( Snake Transfering Demons )

selfishly , you decided to still sleep with me

infected me with the demons that were never assigned to me

and they invaded my mind , body , and soul

now im fighting demons that take root and grow like mold

You Look me in my eye and lie , and then wonder why things in your life die

To me you speak life , but over yourself you speak death

its not that you did it , but it was the plan of action that blew me away

then when you are confronted , like a deer in headlights , you have nothing to say

What makes matter worse is , if the shoe was on the other foot

next to me , is not where you would be , on to next...

Goodnight

Well , its late at night and im ready to go to bed

i will wrap my hair up

and wipe the make -up off my face

and take some time to talk to God

I will tell Him how my day went

my likes and dislikes

I will tell Him the things that i would like Him to change

Or if my issue is in His Will , then please show me a sign

Its at this moment , i feel more beautiful then my skin

because i have a father who loves me

from deep within

and i cant see Him, But i feel Him like the wind

you may think i talk to myself , but its quite the opposite

So , As i lay me down to sleep

i pray the Lord my soul to keep

i understand no day is promise to me

and if He wakes me up , and start me on my way

I will be his blood stream , flowing with love and a strong desire

to be more like Him everyday

Goodbye World

& Goodnight

   &#...

Look , im a girl from around the way

WWWho in the he** is calling me in 3am in the morning.....Hello........This is who......stop playing.....Im bout to hang up.......Im not......What....How did you kno......Oh , my.......Look......

Im sorry for lying to you , but if i would of told you the truth , you would of looked at me differently

at the time , i was a ugly duckling in a big pond , just trying to make do

I had goals and dreams i wanted to come true

i tried selling drugs but i couldnt live with the doubt

trust was too hard to come by , and the violence of jeoulsy was too much for me

i paid them to release me , so i could live a better life

So , my talent became my way maker

i danced until i couldnt fit another dollar on my thigh

I had to be , at lowest part of my self esteem , for me to think i was doing the right thing

money was fast , and no strings attached relationships cast my mind into a deeper hell

...

Lone Soldier

Lone Soldier

Chip on his shoulder

attitude colder then ice

hard like bolder

But to a women , he is soft as a bear and pretty nice ...

it confused me....

His looks are very deceiving

he needs a helping hand

not a judgemental mind

that he happens to get everytime he ask for help

LONE SOLDIER

a menence to society

a victim of his own sin

sad to say

he sold his soul

for a unsatified high

like a snake curessing my thigh

and he know he got you hook when he hears your silent sigh

LONE SOLDIER

a misunderstood ,victim of the hood

makes excuses like

I wish i could.....or i wish they would......

I saw past his invisable wall

that blocked every call

that could have saved his life

that could have gave him another choice

Other then violence

A gunshot to the chest , bu...