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I am not open to anymore bull and lies that only leave me teary eyed. That only leave me left picking up pieces that I didn't even break. That only leave heartbreak and distrust at my door step and you had the audacity to not even wipe your feet. My soul needs to be nourished, I will not sit down at the table with you any longer without something to eat, eat with, eat on and a glass to drink, so that I may refresh my soul. I am worth more than your occasional text, late night booty calls or no text or calls at all. Yet you seem muddled at my unwillingness to rush to be in your grace. I will not undress my body nor my soul for half ass-NESS, that are apart of your elaborate excuses, only meant to cause delusions in my mind. I am not open anymore to the pollution you spew that sound like a dream, but not one word do you mean and it leaves me hollow inside. I can not stand by while you womanize before my eyes, while telling me you love me. I am not open to allowing my self to give freely to someone who knows nothing of what it is to give and only of what it is to take until I am left empty and dangling on the edge of almost losing my self and my mind. I am not open anymore to your misrepresentation of yourself in all of who and what you are, because you are to afraid to just live in your TRUTH! I am not open anymore to your bull and lies that creates despise in my eyes and doesn't allow me to be who I truly am for guarding myself against you. I am not accepting a piece of a man any longer, because I do not want to give only pieces of me to you.
I AM NOT OPEN ANYMORE TO YOUR BULL
© Robin. J 1/29/2019
