the day I realized my existence was built on a foundation of fluff and scraps, I did not howl at the moon I just prayed that eventually one day I would be worthy enough to sit in front of it. Gaze at it, take in its beauty, and reciprocate that energy.
In brown hands I lay my trust
when i am touched by them
Loved by them
Hugged by them
I would begin to heal
Any open wound I've ever had
I can't imagine ever needing a band aid
Just your kind words, that sooth any abrasions.
Followed by soft touch
Ended warm embrace
That leaves me feeling like a child everytime, because that's when I lost my trust for men. At age 4 when that boy followed me in the bathroom. That child in me that has not felt safe within their own body or thoughts
for the first time I am not choking on smoke
From the fire that burns inside my gut
And time is my best friend
Because it is stagnant
When ever I look at you