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Introduced to lust at the tender age of 15.
Mind was so green, did not know the difference between lust and love,
only thing tender was the softness between my thighs and the bruises on my heart.
Years of mental and physical control, I let him beguile me and lead me down a road with a hefty toll.
Soul stained the bloodiest red and now the seed of my sin was growing.
Ashamed of myself trying to hide, but He is all knowing.
Twenty years young with no clue about parenting, started searching for my center so the cycle could be broken...
choking on the fog that clouded my eyes, I fell for a smile made up of lies...questioned 'If my thoughts and heart are
known, why wasn't the truth shown?'
Same path just different time span and name, hoping for a better outcome but it was the same. Thought all the
wrong motives would eventually turn right...smh...still thinking I was out of sight.
26 was the age I decided enough was enough, wanted all the hurt, shame, and disgust to disappear. Felt like life
would be better for all without me here. Daily wishing and Praying for an end...a car accident, poison, slit wrists so i
could watch the life pour down my hands. The Devil had shown me many ways to give up the ghost, but before I
gave in so he could boast, I had a talk with an almost forgotten friend.
I talked he listened, I told him my story...I yelled, screamed, and cried til my eyes went dry.
He let me vent without judging or a sigh, He held my hand and in the calmest voice said,
" It will be alright, I know your past, present, and your future" told me that even though things looked dim,
if I remembered my Faith I would always find a comforting Light in Him.
So never think that when you are lost you are alone, because Jesus is always there to help you find your way home.
