I didn’t ask for this, I didn’t ask for you, I wasn’t waiting or watching. I was just there with my eyes opened shut. Now I cannot remember that moment, yet I know there was a moment, I know there was a day I stubbed my toes and fell face forward into your biosphere, but I did not look for your realm. One day as I strolled along my life there before me was a curve and I fearlessly walked in, not even thinking twice.
That was the day that you world collided into mine. I wasn’t sure where I was but I felt the pain pushing past the place I stood, I stood still not even looking forward, oblivious that I was lost, no longer on my own, you had found my hand but I was so wrapped up in my moment I was unaware that you had.
I didn’t ask for this.  Â
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