Didn’t love myself

No love lost

No love lost
We just lost a connection
Me with you I thought we had perfection
No love lost 
just seeing things clearer 
as I wave to you in the rear view mirror 
I realized that I didn’t lose you 
I gained myself.. a winner 

Didn’t love myself

F**ked around and loved you.
and I didn’t love myself. 
You seen all the flaws in me
and used it for yourself. 
Mesmerize by your eyes 
disguised in lies.... lies 
after f**king lies.
Had me second guessing my worth.
Tripping and losing my mind. 
20/20 vision but for you I was blind. 
Showed me all the signs. 
but I yet I still declined. 

2 am's

2 am’s thoughts going through my mind but no thoughts of sleep.

The thoughts of what to do, what I should have done, what should have been.

Over analyzing. It’s only making it worse.

My mind is racing. I’m draining myself thin.

If only I can find the solutions that comes from within.

Find the answers to these questions that are constant.

These 2 am’s should be spent sleep or enjoying someone I love.

But 2 am’s here…. We…. Meet….. Again!