What Appeal

Do you?

When you tell me that you love me..
Do you mean it?
Do you??

When you tell me that you will be with me..
Do you mean it??
Do you??

When you tell me that I am your queen..
Do you mean it?
Do you?

When you tell me those words..
Do you know how fly I am??
Do you know how I become the happiest woman in this world?
Do you?
I bet you never know..

Cause you still can come and tell me that..
That you were just joking..
That you were just playing..
That you never knew I would take it so seriously..
That it will break my heart this deep..

I know that you may think that I am stupid..
That I am another idiot who takes your words..
That I am another idiot who is dying because of your toxic..
You feel happy that you are succeed in breaking my heart..
Do you?
You feel glad that you can conquer the greatest wall of me..

I am Done

I  am lying here all alone..
With this wind blowing my hair..
And softly caress my skin..
It feels like it is not only blowing my hair..
But it as well blows my soul and my spirit away..

I am lying here..
Weak... and fragile..
I don't even have enough energy to cry..
I don't even have enough energy to pull that tears out of my eyes..

Look at this weak body on the ground..
What will I do with it?
Kill it or leave it?

I am lying here 
All alone..
Weak and fragile..
I am now understand..
And totally know that I am done..

I am done.. 
Totally done..
 

Kill Me

Kill me before you leave me..
For I cannot live without you..
How am I suppose to breathe when you take the air away?
How am I suppose to live when you take my heart away??

Kill me before you leave me
For I am a fish without water when you are not there..
For I am human without blood when you are not around..
Just kill me before you leave me..

Stab my heart with that knife..
Shoot my head with that shot gun..
Or just burn me to dust..

Just kill me before you leave me..
 

Invisible Me

He stands right beside me..
So close..
That I can feel his body touches mine accidentally..
That I can smell his body scent obviously..
That I can hear his breath going through his nose to his lungs..
He is so close..
That I lost my mind.. 
And I think that I am in heaven now..

But he never sees me..
He never feels me as I feel him..
I am invisible..
I am invisible for him..

He is right beside me..
But I never can put my head on his shoulder..
I never can hold his hand..
I never can hold him tight and tell him that I love him..
I never can..

Because he never sees me..
Never will.. 
 

What Appeal

Alone..
Sitting here alone..
Can you feel how I feel?
I know what you see is only what appeals..

You may think that I am strong and unbeatable..
But I am sure weak and fragile..
You may think that I am happy and glamor..
But I am weak and blur..
You may think that I am flying up high..
But I am drowning, sinking.. going down and down..

Alone..
Can you feel how I feel?
I know that you only see what appeals..