The current situation is causing much aggravation
Stretching my emotional and spiritual limits.
No need for anymore metaphorical gimmicks.
Slowly nibbling & gnawing at my weak human spirit.
It’s been three years of consistent frustration
Paying very close attention to Gods legislation.
Being fervent & diligent
Like Free Masons that created our nation.
Feeling unacknowledged and as if my works are ignored.
Feeling terribly angry and intellectually bored.
I already broke my own philosophical cord
Yet dismayed at how pain increases
As if my prayers are just ignored.
And yet to my very own surprise
I have come to acknowledge and recognize
That GOD does hear my cries
And sees every tear that falls from my eyes.
I now surmise that my demise is near
And that’s always been my greatest fear.
The pain inside only intensifies
No matter how hard my prayers are released from my lips.
I guess Gods gift was not meant for me alone and I was meant to sift
Mentally shift, release and uplift
My own physiological corpse
Open up my own doors
Study and take note of everyone’s cores.
Trying to be the soldier that I thought I was destined to become
Although I can now vocalize that to me, it was dumb – still feeling numb
And I now truly believe that me and humanity
Are nothing but Gods left over crumbs
Some say that’s insanity
Or even blame and accuse me of blasphemy and profanity.
But unless you walked in the very shoes that I wear daily
To tread this dangerous and unhealthy path
You have no right or authority to mock and laugh
‘Cause you place yourself in a position
To suffer the aftermath!.
SkTzO