The letter says no longer needed
Help not required, did not fit the standard
Coils run through the walls of stomach and the door sounds in my head
As if the next letter gonna be red
Hands full of aches, take to keyboard to ask you do you know the Lord?
Then realise the statements gone too deep
Have tongues been wagging to much female braggin'
How did I take steps to land my foot here
I feel weight on my shoulder and with might refuse it refuse it to be because of what I was in their sight
Wrong fit or wrong shade? I'll leave that to starlight
Inside I know that searching is having the strength to start again
Remove the prisms of mind to be open and free anti negativity
This day came yesterday and my balance was finally up
Is it her genes her smile, her Irish wit that kept me on top and floating
Like river fish or Rainbow trout gasping for air
Was it his stead his steely gaze that got me fixated on a future
A job with meaning
A purposeful task
And when I look around there are many others looking like me
So these days I laugh and laugh and laugh