Thoughts swirling-
Crashing like waves
against the shore.
Fears protruding-
Exploding like a volcano
up into the air.
Reality distorting-
Clouding like fog
covers field.
Heart longing-
Begging like a homeless man often has to beg for a meal.
Body shivering-
Freezing down through
my bones to my soul.
Head spinning-
Twirling like a horse
on a never ending carousel.
Soul wondering-
Simply just pondering
like a proven genius.
Moral shaken-
Jumping like a boy who has been
exposed to his own weakness.
Faith leaving-
Packing up and relocating
to somewhere else stable.
Eyes tearing-
Like a child cries under
the kitchen table.
Balance fading-
Falling like a river-bound
kind of suicide.
Future wobbling-
Realizing how truly lost
that I truly am inside.
© Crystal Floyd
May 19th, 2021
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