Idk why you make me this way... why do you make my heart fill with so much rage... a different kind of rage tho like my heart is beating at the rate of a humming bird my chest is as if it’s about to explode... maybe because I know deep down we’ll never work but it’s better to have some of you now then to have none of you at all even if that means I’m second or third place...even if that means I have to hold in my feelings for you in the pit of my stomach..I’ll try not to vomit I’ll try to numb the pain...maybe if I love you less no no I tried that already maybe if I accept everything flaw you spew at me even if I know it’s not true... the rage I feel inside is untamable because I wanna let you go because I know it’s probably what’s best.. but who am I to play checkers with my heart when this is chess...what’s the final end game what’s the final draw that will make you stay away? maybe if I trigger your emotions piss you off every other day maybe you’ll finally leave and I won’t be tortured during my stay...maybe just maybe you love me the same?... but lately I don’t feel it why can’t you just understand my heart there isn’t much to understand it only beats for you it only wants you...you choosing not to stay is the only way I’ll ever let go..
YannaTaneil
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love_supreme says: I loved this one. Excellent write. |
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