Tired: Confessions of Man

Still Standing

I’ve walked through many storms…

I’ve fought my way through many battles.

Came out with a few bruises but no major harm.

I’ve stood face to face with the devil, faced my demons, and released myself from the mental shackles.

I’m not perfect but a work in progress.

I’m still healing from past pain.

As I move forward, no matter what I face…I try not to stress.

I’m still battling with things that I find hard to explain.

This journey has not been easy…it has been very demanding.

But through it all, I’m still standing.

I can still hear my mother’s loud scream as she fell to the floor.

Tears in her eyes, hands over her face…begging my father not to hit her anymore.

It was heartbreaking for me to watch as my father beat my mother…. causing her to take her last breathe of life.

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Torn in Love

There’s a battle going on between my heart and mind.

Trying to understand what I am feeling…

I have so much that I want to say, but the words are too hard to find.

My heart is speaking loudly, but my mind says I need time to heal.

I need to release this tension building within me.

I find writing to be good therapy.

So, I put the pen to the pad and speak my truth through poetry.

Maybe the answer will reveal itself to me.

Hopefully the words I express won’t create judgment.

This battle between my heart and mind has been going on too long.

Don’t judge me please…I just need to speak my truth and vent.

I need to resolve this soon, but how can I make a decision without feeling like I am doing something wrong?

Overthinking is causing my emotions to be all over the place.

I walk around with a smile, but I know that my true feeli...

The Process Of Death and Rebirth

My love, look at me.

Are you sure you’re ready to travel with me on this journey?

We made it to the end of this stage of our journey.

It’s time for us to move on and create a new legacy.

This journey is not for the faint of heart.

Are you sure you’re ready to step into the dark night of your soul?

Please be honest with me before we start.

I’m curious about how all of this will unfold.

I want to make sure you’re ready to walk with me to the other side.

Are you ready to face your demons?

Are you sure you’re ready to face the darkness within you that you’ve tried to hide?

Once we enter, we cannot leave until the test is complete.

Once we step through the door, there is no turning back.

If we fail a level, it will repeat.

It will test our love for one another.

It will try to push us to wave the ...

Tired: Confessions of Man

All I hear is chitter chatter.

Your words are falling on deaf ears.

Your words no longer matter.

We’ve been through this scene before.

I’m at the point where I can’t take this anymore

While I try to explain my perspective,

You want to throw dishes and scream.

I’m not sure if you’re seeing the reality of our situation

or you’re living in a dream.

Talking about you want a relationship like Bey and Jay.

Are you sure you want to walk down that pathway?

Jay has cheated on Bey numerous of times

and there are things that may have happened that you don’t know.

You don’t want genuine love…you want something superficial and for show.

Instead of dealing with our problems in house, you want to run to your family and friends.

When will this cycle come to an end?

Now, there all up i...

The New Gen Ancestors

I speak truth!

I speak what’s real!

I speak what people really feel,

But are afraid to say.

I can’t tread from what’s real…I don’t see any other way.

I speak from the perspective of a woman and man.

I believe both have perspectives we fail to see and understand.

I know the struggles of woman and the demands placed on a man.

We live in world filled with labels and expectations.

Disappointment and failure comes with living up to these labels.

Shackled to the chains of past generations.

Struggling and grinding just to bring something to the table.

Ancestors depending on us to make change,

But gave us the wrong rules to the game.

This is not the old days…nothing is the same.

No offense to Malcom X and Martin Luther King,

But we’re not backing down…we’re taking what is ou...

Wake Up!!!!

Got introduced to the darkness of this world at a young age.

I understood then that life operates in sequence of levels, cycles and stages.

The key to navigating through each board is to be mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually strong.

Once you understand the lessons behind the challenges you face, you can’t go wrong.

Don’t live your life as a Puppet…wake up and cut that damn string.

Stop chasing after the dream they sold.

Create your own dream and watch how your life unfolds.

Stop wasting your time living your life in repeat doing the same thing.

Free yourself from the puppet master and create a life of your own.

Stop following their blueprint…

cause you’re failing to read the fine print.

Free yourself from being an inmate in the prison of society.

Stop playing the role of the victim just to get sympathy.

Kn...

Liberated

This is the ending.

My new life is beginning.

I see my true self staring back at me through the reflection in the mirror.

My eyes are wide open

My new reality is becoming clearer.

I see the world with new vision

No longer blinded by illusions.

Making moves in silence and with precision.

The negative voices in my head have all retreated.

No longer living my life in confusion.

The darkness has been defeated.

I’ve walked through the valley of the shadow of death.

I’ve battled my demons and stood toe to toe with the devil.

I liberated myself and reclaimed my soul.

I’m growing and evolving to the next level.

I trust my path and how this new chapter of my life will unfold.

No longer carrying the baggage of my past.

I’m a wild beast that can’t be controlled nor tamed

I’m a s...

New Me

If I speak my truth, will you accept it?

If I expose what hides behind these illusions, will you reject it.

My eyes are wide open.

I see the darkness that is hidden.

I’m not a sheep who follow the masses blindly.

They say the game doesn’t change, but why do people fall for it repeatedly?

The tactics, lies and schemes are always the same.

I’m a rebel and wild beast that can’t be tamed.

I refused to fall for the bait and tricks.

I’m too awakened to fall prey to the matrix.

I’m not saying that I’m better than any of you.

But ever since I ‘ve awakened, I see the world with a different view.

I’m flawed and was once a lost sheep.

But I refuse to fall back asleep.

Every step I make is calculated.

Being a follower is outdated.

I’ve fully stepped into my power and fixed my crown.

Keeping...

Cold Heart

As she paint over the broken part of herself with make-up,

She stares in the mirror at her reflection.

Looking at the part of her that has suffered hurt, pain,

and rejection.

She only feel alive when she’s on stage.

Using her body to gain the attention of men who

are willing to tell her whatever they think she want to hear.

Words sweeter than honey fall off their lips,

While admiring her body and the way she move her hips.

Desperate for love but looking in all the wrong places.

Wearing a mask; hiding her true self.

Putting on a performance and wearing many faces.

Ignoring the voice of truth within herself by

 listening to the words of everyone else.

Settling for love in any form even if it’s not real.

Burying her pain in alcohol and drugs.

Trying to escape reality and what she truly feel.

She&rsq...

Kissed by The Black Widow

I think I’ve been kissed by the infamous Black Widow.

I’m not sure about what has happened,

but I can feel her deep within me.

Her venom is coursing through my veins like electricity.

Her beautiful eyes will have the strongest man hypnotized.

She’s a woman of darkness and mystery.

Her heart is filled with hidden deceit and lies.

Her soul is dark, and her bite is deadly.

She’s a woman who has captured my undivided attention,

but I know her heart lies with someone else.

Her seduction is so damn enticing.

I hate to admit it, but I want her all to myself.

I know this path she’s leading me down is not right,

but these feelings are becoming harder to fight.

I’ve tried holding back my desire

but my passion burns for her like volcanic fire.

She has her claws in me like a demonic succubus.