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Sassy
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Out of Lewisham Hospital

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The doors closed behind me, I was released! 

I exhaled for what felt like the first time in weeks and breathed in again deep

I felt fit compared to the otheres there - I was well, compared

I forgot my misty bath salts and razors so buzzed again

returning scared, scared they would take me in again like an envelope

Fold me up, lay me down on plastic sheets, inject my butt

The food was pasty, same coloured and dull.  the heat drifting from the radiators was stagnant wasn't made of sunshine 

Keys turn, doors lock, windows closed shut 

In case we jump - I muse

Here in the now there is a way out, a way to begin again 

At yet I am starting at nothing 

Suddenly food became my hero

The pressing of darkness lifted in Morleys, Spagetti with bolognase, Amlya, Puff puff and fried rice

Why did I not think twice?

My centre was fulfilled and all the nightmares of not seeing my family again, the dreaded section 2 of looming thoughts 

The thoughts of physcic abilities the shamanism witch in me shamed

The me shamed, my female frame, my high brow, my brown skin and curly knots

I forgot that there is a stage, I forgot that this is London

So now year on, with work and activities going strong 

And then the lady stops and says ''eh girl I didn't know you were expecting?'' 

I say back honestly and frank ''no I take medication, causes me to bloat'' 

Not I couldn;t close my mouth to fight back tears of frustration and emptiness 

I couldn't close my mouth to pain

I feel again shamed to not be with husband and children

A female rising solo reaching for her own mojo 

Tomorrow I tell myself I will run early like the morning wind away from rivers, dreaming into fight

All for a pair of size ten jeans 

This happily is my wish 

Instead of when will I see my family again. 

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Chris says:

Stay Well and I pray u would be with your family again. I enjoyed reading your writing. It was Amazing Writing Your body size does not matter, it's the Warmth in your Heart that shows the real size. Keep writing Wonderful

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Chris says:

Stay Well and I pray u would be with your family again. I enjoyed reading your writing. It was Amazing Writing Your body size does not matter, it's the Warmth in your Heart that shows the real size. Keep writing Wonderful
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mlowe5 says:

Ah, Sassy! To God be the glory. What a blessing to know that you're still perpendicular to the ground; even though you may be parallel in bed. Forgive self and move on in divine wisdom and guidance. In Ourstory, you have much to say about your sojourn. With the gracious gift of a pregnant poetic mind, continue to do so. We are of the creation of God; nothing to be ashamed of! Shame the devil! Look! See family! Peace and Love, mlowe5.
 

Sassy says:

Thank you for your encouragement - this is a great writers community and I enjoy reading all of your work!
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2b2b2 says:

Excellent Share Sassy - the blessing is so very much now, so enjoy and smile today....and let that carry over to another day, that is promised but not necessarily assured....Tight Write....Namaste
 

Newpanther says:

explicitly excellent...

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