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-My mind begins to drift off…no longer in my reality-
Standing here thinking about you.
Wondering if you’re thinking about me…
Wondering what you’re up to…
Wondering where you are…
Have you moved on with your life?
Are you still near or have you gone afar?
Wondering how long we’re going to pretend…
Thinking about the text I’ve written to you…contemplating on whether I should hit send.
Wondering how long we’re going to run from this connection…
You’re afraid of being hurt,
I’m afraid of rejection.
How long will we prevent ourselves from this love?
Is this a fantasy out of reach or
Is it everything we’ve dreamed of?
Thoughts of you floods my mind and I feel myself drowning.
Trying to control my emotions…trying to stay above.
This feeling is unknown to me.
I’m lost…
Lost in the mysterious forest of your love.
You’ve awaken parts of me that have been buried deep.
What have you done to me?
I can’t sleep.
Is this a risk I should take?
Should I take this gamble, or will this be another mistake?
I’m battling between my heart and mind.
Trying to figure out what should I do.
The answers I seek are becoming harder to find.
You have seen the man behind the mask.
You’re the first woman who recognizes the real me through this disguise.
I see the beautiful light that’s within you every time I look into your eyes.
I can’t deny and I know this may sound weird,
but I feel within me the seed of your love that you have sown.
These feelings within is something I’ve always feared.
But I must admit…
My feelings for you have deepened and grown.
You’ve spoken to my inner wounds and that alone has made me heal.
Man…is this my imagination? Is my mind playing tricks on me?
Are the feelings I’m having real?
Should I stay silent, or should I act upon what I feel?
What the F**ck should I do?
-The pastor interrupts my thoughts…snapping back to my reality-
“Excuse me sir, but we’re waiting on you to answer.
-Me-
“What was the question?â€
-The pastor-
“Do you ****, take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, to live together in matrimony, to love her, comfort her, honor and keep her, in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, to have and to hold from this day forward, as long as you both shall live?â€
-Me-
Silent
