Everyday prayer filled with several layers
Asking, begging & pleading while simultaneously bleeding
Always find myself following truth while I want to be leading
Using the knowledge and wisdom given, but feel like I’ve been forbidden
If I am not meant to be much, then offer me such & such
Reached out to feel & touch
The very essence of your divine presence
Your great glorified imminence
Lost my providence and got filled with violence!
Lack of understanding of truth through the pain that’s been allowed and bestowed
Seeking for your smile and blessing but instead I feel your anger & see your frown
Am I supposed to be enclosed and spiritually disposed & closed.
Like a garbage bag, letting go of the treacherous rag
My spirits legs are exhausted and so now they drag.
Sought for peace & joy and all the blessings you mention
That if I give of myself fully you would provide bountiful intervention
Placed in this place of disgrace in a laughter convention.
Cause for far too long I’ve been forced to remain strong
And you have yet to give me pain prevention.
My arms keep flailing as my heart is failing
My mind is confused seeking for refuge in your home of respite
Spoken polite, but despite my openness and inner calm
You continue your silence with no word of comfort
To inform me that you hold me in your palm.
SkTzO