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My heart has been broken.
My love has been mistaken.
The burdens I bared
were on a level that I could not be compared.
As the weight of the world weighed heavily on my shoulders,
I asked one question to all my past lovers…
Why?
Why did you come into my life when you were not ready?
Why did you treat me like an option instead of a priority?
Why couldn’t you give me the same energy I was giving you?
Why was I blamed for your inner trauma and viewed as the issue?
Why did I have to pay for the pain other women caused you?
Answer me!!!
I built you up when others tore you down.
I stayed by your side when others weren’t around.
I was the floatation device that held you above the rough waters when you almost drowned.
I held your hand and walked through the fire with you.
Burning; feeling my skin falling off my flesh…
I kept walking even though my soul was crying out in distress.
I ignored the red flags and all the signs.
Blinded by illusions and blurred lines.
Fell in love with your potential instead of what you presented.
It wasn’t you that I resented.
It was your actions that made me change my view of you.
It was your lies that made me no longer trust you.
It was your disregard for my feelings that made me see the man behind the mask.
It wasn’t your money, your status, nor what you could give me materialistically.
Unconditional love, honesty, reciprocity and doing your part was all I ever asked.
I don’t hate any of you…I release the pain, hurt and each one of you with love.
I learned to focus on my healing and learned how to genuinely love myself.
I no longer place the responsibility of being loved or feeling loved by anyone else.
Looking back, I now realize y’all were the lessons in love
that led me to my blessing in love…
And he loves me unconditionally!
