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first love

Love, i miss you like i miss home I miss the way i can’t define you to one specific person place or thing I miss the way you used to excite me when I’d been gone too long Love, I miss the fireflies that used to light up the sky or my insides Right before I’d see you for the first time in awhile I miss the days that certain songs used to make my knees week Because they reminded me how happy i was to be a part of you How at peace I was with the fact with you here I felt like happiness Could outlast eternity Now Love & Home, I miss you two so bad that you are no longer Separate from each other You're both too far to touch Too distant to ever be reconciled with my presence I don't have enough direction to find or separate one from the other Home or intertwined thighs not specific enough to name beyond ex lover Too many broken hearts that have been mine Too many tears I've cried over memories of red bricks and hot plates The sound of history coming out in voices and Georgia red clay The way you used to kiss me or the hope I had in maybe And all the dreams tomorrow used to hold Now I love you is a foreign concept and the sound of it is getting old But i miss the happiness and the hope That someone saying “i love you” and me falling for it used to have for me Like i miss slow afternoons and sweet tea Grits in the morning and the sound of country good evenings Falling off of lips that belonged to me I miss you Love Love, you used to be exciting and I loved the chase Whether i was running or being caught It was all new and i wasn’t afraid even though i might have acted like i was at first That was before i knew how bad love could hurt Before you were just like my childhood back home So much adventure so much space to roam Too many giggles and scream in the dark Too many hands being held and kisses being stolen Love, just like home you have stolen my heart But home made it and you broke it Love, you have had too many faces not enough to become nameless I still remember the sequences of letters that belongs to each one I still remember all the lies you gave me in disguise dressed like something real But none of them love all the deceit and envy of a country girl Without enough savvy to lie to someones heart you took it that i wasn't that smart and I was easy to fool Than love I’m sorry you made that mistake because that isn't the truth I knew I was too good for you because of the woman where I’m from made me im made from tough stuff and some rough stuff and love you didn’t play me You just made me miss home but ill always be excited to return like a sailor who never quite got his sea legs that finally returns to solid earth love you …. will be forgotten like the rest and one day ill meet a woman who is home and i love her more than you because loyality passion and respect will make her my best friend she will feel like home everytime i touch her she wont lie and my smile will make u envy me and because of that ill llove her its gunna hurt ill miss you from time to time but love you should have had more back bone because then i would have loved you like i do home and you and i would have never known the emptiness that we found in good bye