Trying to write this, but it is hard to construwith baby so thatct, these feelings since she is gone. All the psychology cannot resolve how mother connects with baby so that life can go on. Her hopes and dreams delayed ..again.As she cares for another...another mouth to feed. Determining how things can be rearranged and find time in the work day, at home, and a diaper change. All The help from older girls is unfair, as they comb one another's hair and study and help their father in the fields As dinner preparations draws near,.To sleep, my baby goes for me.